Oh what a coincidence. Everytime I look at you I'm glad I'm a lesbian.
Tomorrow is Valentine's Day.
It really makes me laugh when people bitch about "how much they hate Valentine's Day". I mean do people really think that you have to be in a relationship with a person to have a wonderful Valentine's Day. I remember in elementary school when we all got to make our Valentine's Day boxes and have people in our class stick the stupid but cute little card that you just write to: so and so and From: Nic... Ya know. I was just getting things like little cards from your peers. Your friends. It's actually about caring for other and not just a single person. Honestyly if I didn't have a boyfriend I would be spending time with my closest friends watching movies and having fun.
I just hate hearing people whine about how much they hate how they are alone on valentine's day and wish they had a boyfriend and how much they hate it. Dude look around you. There are hundreds of women who love valentines day not because they have a boyfriend but more so because they have amazing people around them who love them. I would rather be with my friends on V-day than my boyfriend. And that is why I am spending time with my best friends. Michael and I are having our dinner and spending time with each other for a few hours but later that night I am going back to my place and hanging out with my roomie. So I am getting the best of both worlds.
So in short I love Valentine's Day, even if it is a Hallmark created holiday.
So I need to not make a big deal of but something I feel is worthy of being talked about on here. It is quite amuzing but I have sympathy and kind of wonder how a person can still function at a normal mental state.
So last weekend Michael and I got into an argument and I decided I wanted some space. I was also at the time working on rebuilding a friendship with one of my ex's. Well in this time period I HAD told him I had NO interest in dating anyone. And I stressed to him over and over again that we weren't going to date and if we did it wouldn't be for a LONG time. As the day progressed things had changed and how I had felt had CHANGED.
After all of my classed Michael and I had talked and basically expressed to each other what we wanted and how we felt and got back together. It just happened. We care about each other very much so we decided that why not give it another shot. It just happened. I posted an LJ on everything that went on that day and what not because I was happy and in a really good mood because of how him and I talked and what we FINALLY got out in the open.
Later that evening Shannon Michael and I all went out to get wings. And right when we were walking in I get this text from that ex saying "You amaze me". I looked at it all confused and like dude what the fuck. So I text him back and basically said what are you talking about. And I get one saying because I broke yet another promise. I have no idea what promise was made. Well the texting went on for a little while and I was just like ok I will call you when I leave and we will talk. After we left I called him and had an interesting conversation.
He basically bitched me out for getting back with Michael after I had told him "I didn't want to date anybody". Well anybody included him as well and yea I did say that. Things change. Didn't know I wasn't allowed to change my mind about things that I say. It happens. Thats life. Well I kept telling him that. He yet again didn't listen saying that this was the 3rd time I have done this to him. Didn't know there were two other times I apparently broke a promise to him. Well when I stated that I didn't know what he was talking about he then preceeded to tell me that the first time I did this to him was when I broke up with him. The second time I apparently did this to him was when I moved out of Shan's and moved back in with him and basically moved back to Shan's 24 hours later because I realized that I couldn't live with him EVER. Even as friends. Both of these times I remember me putting forth effort to be his friend. And apparently the third time was when I tried working on a FRIENDSHIP with him NOT RELATIONSHIP and he gets pissed because me and my boyfriend got back together.
What I don't understand is how if we were working on a friendship it matters that Michael and I worked things out. Granted I did say I didn't want a relationship with anybody, how that affects him and I being friends. In my mind it doesn't. Apparently in his though it does affect things. Weird.
How we got off the phone was pretty funny though. Irronically he had nothing left to say and clearly maybe realized that he was talking in circles he had to throw in my current status with a very important person to me in my face. It was a low dig. He knew it would piss me off and it did but it also made me realize how truly pathetic and how he had NOTHING to back up what he was talking about. As an adult you would think that someone would be able to stress a point civily not be childish and just throw things in someone else's face. But, not him. He has no argueing skills. He has no real appropriate social skills either. They just contain getting drunk all the time and making yourself look like a fool.
Anyways I felt that was more than worthly to talk about because I just need to get it out there that I'm not necessarily the bad person like I'm sure people have heard. But I'm not necessarily the victim either. We both hurt each other but I have come to the realization that life is too short to hold a grudge and well why not try and be friends through it all considering you cared deeply about each other at one point in time. I guess I'm a mature person then I dunno.
As for everything else, Life is good. School is good. My friends and family are amazing like always. Work is fun like usual. I love it. I am so happy with everything. I am glad Michael and I worked things out. Valentine's day is going to be fun. Mostly because I am going to be with my friends. People I love oh so much. I got offered an internship at Pitt and Carnigie Melon for over the summer. Haven't applied yet but I am going to. There is also an intership that I could do in my Justice Studies major too. Dunno which one I would do.
And because it is in the season. I am loving the Olympics this year. Figure skating is just so awesome. Everything else is awesome. I am just enjoying them so much. Fabulous.
Ciao loves
It really makes me laugh when people bitch about "how much they hate Valentine's Day". I mean do people really think that you have to be in a relationship with a person to have a wonderful Valentine's Day. I remember in elementary school when we all got to make our Valentine's Day boxes and have people in our class stick the stupid but cute little card that you just write to: so and so and From: Nic... Ya know. I was just getting things like little cards from your peers. Your friends. It's actually about caring for other and not just a single person. Honestyly if I didn't have a boyfriend I would be spending time with my closest friends watching movies and having fun.
I just hate hearing people whine about how much they hate how they are alone on valentine's day and wish they had a boyfriend and how much they hate it. Dude look around you. There are hundreds of women who love valentines day not because they have a boyfriend but more so because they have amazing people around them who love them. I would rather be with my friends on V-day than my boyfriend. And that is why I am spending time with my best friends. Michael and I are having our dinner and spending time with each other for a few hours but later that night I am going back to my place and hanging out with my roomie. So I am getting the best of both worlds.
So in short I love Valentine's Day, even if it is a Hallmark created holiday.
So I need to not make a big deal of but something I feel is worthy of being talked about on here. It is quite amuzing but I have sympathy and kind of wonder how a person can still function at a normal mental state.
So last weekend Michael and I got into an argument and I decided I wanted some space. I was also at the time working on rebuilding a friendship with one of my ex's. Well in this time period I HAD told him I had NO interest in dating anyone. And I stressed to him over and over again that we weren't going to date and if we did it wouldn't be for a LONG time. As the day progressed things had changed and how I had felt had CHANGED.
After all of my classed Michael and I had talked and basically expressed to each other what we wanted and how we felt and got back together. It just happened. We care about each other very much so we decided that why not give it another shot. It just happened. I posted an LJ on everything that went on that day and what not because I was happy and in a really good mood because of how him and I talked and what we FINALLY got out in the open.
Later that evening Shannon Michael and I all went out to get wings. And right when we were walking in I get this text from that ex saying "You amaze me". I looked at it all confused and like dude what the fuck. So I text him back and basically said what are you talking about. And I get one saying because I broke yet another promise. I have no idea what promise was made. Well the texting went on for a little while and I was just like ok I will call you when I leave and we will talk. After we left I called him and had an interesting conversation.
He basically bitched me out for getting back with Michael after I had told him "I didn't want to date anybody". Well anybody included him as well and yea I did say that. Things change. Didn't know I wasn't allowed to change my mind about things that I say. It happens. Thats life. Well I kept telling him that. He yet again didn't listen saying that this was the 3rd time I have done this to him. Didn't know there were two other times I apparently broke a promise to him. Well when I stated that I didn't know what he was talking about he then preceeded to tell me that the first time I did this to him was when I broke up with him. The second time I apparently did this to him was when I moved out of Shan's and moved back in with him and basically moved back to Shan's 24 hours later because I realized that I couldn't live with him EVER. Even as friends. Both of these times I remember me putting forth effort to be his friend. And apparently the third time was when I tried working on a FRIENDSHIP with him NOT RELATIONSHIP and he gets pissed because me and my boyfriend got back together.
What I don't understand is how if we were working on a friendship it matters that Michael and I worked things out. Granted I did say I didn't want a relationship with anybody, how that affects him and I being friends. In my mind it doesn't. Apparently in his though it does affect things. Weird.
How we got off the phone was pretty funny though. Irronically he had nothing left to say and clearly maybe realized that he was talking in circles he had to throw in my current status with a very important person to me in my face. It was a low dig. He knew it would piss me off and it did but it also made me realize how truly pathetic and how he had NOTHING to back up what he was talking about. As an adult you would think that someone would be able to stress a point civily not be childish and just throw things in someone else's face. But, not him. He has no argueing skills. He has no real appropriate social skills either. They just contain getting drunk all the time and making yourself look like a fool.
Anyways I felt that was more than worthly to talk about because I just need to get it out there that I'm not necessarily the bad person like I'm sure people have heard. But I'm not necessarily the victim either. We both hurt each other but I have come to the realization that life is too short to hold a grudge and well why not try and be friends through it all considering you cared deeply about each other at one point in time. I guess I'm a mature person then I dunno.
As for everything else, Life is good. School is good. My friends and family are amazing like always. Work is fun like usual. I love it. I am so happy with everything. I am glad Michael and I worked things out. Valentine's day is going to be fun. Mostly because I am going to be with my friends. People I love oh so much. I got offered an internship at Pitt and Carnigie Melon for over the summer. Haven't applied yet but I am going to. There is also an intership that I could do in my Justice Studies major too. Dunno which one I would do.
And because it is in the season. I am loving the Olympics this year. Figure skating is just so awesome. Everything else is awesome. I am just enjoying them so much. Fabulous.
Ciao loves