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[nickycuty41270]

so...everythings cool and by cool I mean not cool at all and by not cool at all I mean ok :) yes that went on much longer than it needed to. Ya know...I am beggining to realize that I feel like a much different person after...hmm hmmmm the uh "uglyness", in a good way. I feel a little hurt yes ( and by a little i mean more than that) but I really wasnt taking good care of myself towards the end of the realationship because I was putting so much energy into me and bob ( mentally especialy)and none into myaelf...my homework wasnt getting done, I wasnt really eating enough, and I was loosing sleep. The more I think about it the more I feel like it was for the best and probubly wasnt the best realationship for me at the time...or a healthy one at the time. I feel healthier now adays, ya know sleeping in all haha, and eating healthier, or eating more in general, and ummm my grades should be going up this quarter haha, so yeah im ready ...to tou know start over...of course you never know what will trigger a memory of the past and make me extreemly sad...but those episodes will come and go and eventually parish. If and when they do happen iv got friends to help too, so ill be set. Just reflecting...I do it alot...somtimes it's good sometimes it's bad.

I slept over lyndsays last night and we watched "Saw" hahaha it was really wierd...and a bit awful...with a different director and a deeper story ...man ! it just could have been soooooooo much better than it was...it could have been a really good torcher movie.

no I am not a sicko I just like horrer movies

OH AND I DONT CARE WHAT YOU SAY MARTIN!!!!THE NEW BECK CD IS FABULOUS AND ITS ONE OF THE ONLY THINGS KEEPING ME SANE THIS WEEK!!!!!!

~veronica c.