Too much time on here...
I spend way too much time on the computer...and I wonder why I'm failing school ;)
I thought about a lot of things this weekend.
Life is a great deal about finding permanence amongst the change. One cannot live in constant change without something to keep them grounded; something to define themselves and to hold on to. Yet we cannot survive as permanent beings. It is essential to also flow with the rivers of change; to admit our mistakes faults and change while somehow holding on to something permanent. It is one of life's great harmonies.
It is why saying "I will always love you" is not just for someone else, but is also essential to our very being.
I realized why I'm so controlling. My mother. I get from her. Absolutely and undoubtedly. It makes me sad because it is the first I have ever really noticed this fault in her. It's the first I've noticed any real fault in her at all. I was blind to it because it is my own fault too. I would love to be able to sit back and let life take its course and not feel the need to control everything.
Like a car down a winding road...just happy with what's around me.
I resolve to be more like that. I already feel that I am. I just need to keep trying.
I thought about a lot of things this weekend.
Life is a great deal about finding permanence amongst the change. One cannot live in constant change without something to keep them grounded; something to define themselves and to hold on to. Yet we cannot survive as permanent beings. It is essential to also flow with the rivers of change; to admit our mistakes faults and change while somehow holding on to something permanent. It is one of life's great harmonies.
It is why saying "I will always love you" is not just for someone else, but is also essential to our very being.
I realized why I'm so controlling. My mother. I get from her. Absolutely and undoubtedly. It makes me sad because it is the first I have ever really noticed this fault in her. It's the first I've noticed any real fault in her at all. I was blind to it because it is my own fault too. I would love to be able to sit back and let life take its course and not feel the need to control everything.
Like a car down a winding road...just happy with what's around me.
I resolve to be more like that. I already feel that I am. I just need to keep trying.