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I want to drink. All the time. I want a shot of something everytime I walk into a restaurant, followed by my favorite beer. Whenever we go grocery shopping, I contemplate buying beer or some sort of cocktail mix for the house. Whenever Im at work (a bar of all places) I want to drink after the shift is over. Some days I want to drink until I pass out, some days I want do drink just to get a buzz, but everyday I crave liquor. CRAVE it. I dont even care that it burns my throat and tastes like shit.
Which is why Ive decided to give up drinking. My dad is an alcoholic, and I know that shit is genetic. I know I have more potential to be an alcoholic than the average person. Since I had Olive, Ive drank at least 3 days out of the week. Ive only gotten drunk once, but it seems the more I drink, the more I want it. I cant do that to Olive and Aaron. I know how much I resent the fact that my dad does it, and how angry Ive been at him in the past. At first I thought I would only drink beer. Because I dont crave that and when i drink beer I typically stop at 3 or 4, just because i get tired of the taste so quickly. Maybe Ill stick to that rule, although it would probably be best if i just gave all of it up at once for good.
On a more positive note, Aaron worked all week. Which is great. I hope he keeps it up.
Which is why Ive decided to give up drinking. My dad is an alcoholic, and I know that shit is genetic. I know I have more potential to be an alcoholic than the average person. Since I had Olive, Ive drank at least 3 days out of the week. Ive only gotten drunk once, but it seems the more I drink, the more I want it. I cant do that to Olive and Aaron. I know how much I resent the fact that my dad does it, and how angry Ive been at him in the past. At first I thought I would only drink beer. Because I dont crave that and when i drink beer I typically stop at 3 or 4, just because i get tired of the taste so quickly. Maybe Ill stick to that rule, although it would probably be best if i just gave all of it up at once for good.
On a more positive note, Aaron worked all week. Which is great. I hope he keeps it up.