last saturday for saturday night 80s
so this the last night that I will be working saturday nights since starting next it will now be "saturday night at the 80s with Todd Pettengill"... well i was alittle sad that it would no longer be Saturday Night 80s anymore... but I got over it. Hello!! I haven't had a saturday night free in like 14 months!! im psyched since i have sundays off normally, and now ill have saturday nights, all day sundays, and then dont have to go to work til 5pm on monday -- so i almost have a full weekend, sort of...
but im going riding tomorrow (even though i really shouldn't since after paying bills and going riding i won't have any money til next friday) but i dont care since i love doing it and i would rather ride for a half hour then eat all week - hey that actually works out for the best!!
but ill have to scrounge some money up somewhere for cigarettes - that maybe be a little of a dilemma...
but anyway, ive been coming to terms, or more of a realization on certain things going on in my life... i think that im just understanding more and more about me and what's going on and why, alittle by little... it just sucks that i have to be the one to help myself understand or see things differently or make sense of something, since my therapist just wants to know all about my past and not like important things but like "what did you like to eat when you were 5?" or "what did you want to do or what did you like in 7th grade" type shit... i wish that i could just tell him something or tell him what a situation is or how im feeling and then have him either be able to give a different view or some sort of idea why that happened or why i felt that way or SOMETHING for christ's sake....
i think thats why therapy isnt working for me or if it is its taking FOR-EV-ER ... its like im dealing with alot on my plate and im attempting to work those things out - and seeing how much i can i can handle in dealing with those things - but im also the one figuring me out and trying to understand myself BY MYSELF and then taking that and seeing how i can fix me or change my life for the better and how i can see if ill be able to see if will help my even bigger issues.... (ok if you didnt understand that, dont worry, im sure that i really dont either - but it sorta was a short rant of sorts)
well i should get going since its almost time to leave (yeah)!
but im going riding tomorrow (even though i really shouldn't since after paying bills and going riding i won't have any money til next friday) but i dont care since i love doing it and i would rather ride for a half hour then eat all week - hey that actually works out for the best!!
but ill have to scrounge some money up somewhere for cigarettes - that maybe be a little of a dilemma...
but anyway, ive been coming to terms, or more of a realization on certain things going on in my life... i think that im just understanding more and more about me and what's going on and why, alittle by little... it just sucks that i have to be the one to help myself understand or see things differently or make sense of something, since my therapist just wants to know all about my past and not like important things but like "what did you like to eat when you were 5?" or "what did you want to do or what did you like in 7th grade" type shit... i wish that i could just tell him something or tell him what a situation is or how im feeling and then have him either be able to give a different view or some sort of idea why that happened or why i felt that way or SOMETHING for christ's sake....
i think thats why therapy isnt working for me or if it is its taking FOR-EV-ER ... its like im dealing with alot on my plate and im attempting to work those things out - and seeing how much i can i can handle in dealing with those things - but im also the one figuring me out and trying to understand myself BY MYSELF and then taking that and seeing how i can fix me or change my life for the better and how i can see if ill be able to see if will help my even bigger issues.... (ok if you didnt understand that, dont worry, im sure that i really dont either - but it sorta was a short rant of sorts)
well i should get going since its almost time to leave (yeah)!