Stupid moment for the week:
Chain of events for the last couple days are as follows:
-Couldn't meet with CPT Spence of the Rutherford County Sheriff's Office Monday because he wouldn't answer his damn phone. He, in turn due to my absence, sent an irate email to Dr. Newman, the Criminal Justice department head at MTSU. She calls me today to inform me that I "royally fucked up" and that it would be "advisable to consider alternative action." So, even though I met with CPT Spence like 3 or 4 times before, some little mishap and the whole thing is canned. $*&@!
-Been working in the regional funeral office in Smyrna for the past couple days in the evenings. It's not bad, but I forget how much I adore doing paperwork. On a non-sarcastic note, I work on a much more solid schedule with fewer hours for the same pay. Yay! I do miss being next to Smyrna Airport with the military helicopters and tanks being so damn busy. It certainly reminds me that we do still have cool toys to play with, so it's not always about the politics.
-I made arrangements to get my side-mirrors repaired from the hail storm last Friday. I'm somewhat surprised I could get an appointment in such short notice, and they come to me! Expensive, however...
-Learned about serial rape/sexual homicide today in Criminal Psychology. I had to walk out about the time he began on about dismemberment with a hacksaw and removal of internal organs for the sexual pleasure... Good God... This world is sickening...
-Finally met with Meiya in Atlanta this evening. She is definitely a no-go. My reasons? She's out of shape, smokes heavily, is a lesbian, and isn't necessarily the brightest crayon in the box. Forgive me for being judgmental, but I don't need that kind of attention at the moment.
-With the recent withdrawal of my internship, I am strongly considering a much different course of action to partake in the path to finish my degree. To put it bluntly, I'm getting very sore and quite bitter that I keep having these ridiculous shortcomings from both school and work. I need to get the hell out of this state, and out of this rental contract...
-Here's the breakdown:
1. I spend entirely too much money on just living expenses - period. (2/3+ at least)
2. I keep letting people down because I have to work too much to keep up.
3. My schooling at MTSU is never going to end.
4. ROTC can shove it.
5. The same goes for my unit for putting me as "last priority" on their list of people to keep with the restructure. I didn't see any of those other bastards drive back and forth for a year from Kansas City to be a part of it.
6. The only good thing about Tennessee is cheap whiskey and concealed carry.
So, here's the plan: Enroll completely in online courses from MTSU for the summer and fall semesters. Enroll at SEMO for whatever the leftovers are (Only two or three more classes besides what I can scrape together from MTSU). Transfer to the Missouri National Guard and begin work with funeral honors there. Work for my brother (finally) at the cafe, pay about 1/3 of the cost to have a place to stay, and tell MTSU ROTC to take a hike.
The way I figure it, with these orders coming in for September, I can pretty easily get out of my housing/rental agreement with the landlord. If he cares to argue, well, I can have JAG take care of that for me. If I can keep the same job in Missouri at the same pay, I would be considerably much better in paying my bills off and actually staying on top of things for once...
Granted, the opportunities here are good, they're not the type of opportunities I need at the moment. I need good stable jobs which people don't want to cut my throat because they want themselves to feel better. Perhaps I just got off on the wrong foot, but this place sucks. At least I know some people back in Cape... Ugh... That and I don't have to work 80+ hours a week to keep up because you can't find legitimate roommates...
Point is that I need to finish my degree, and I don't have to be a miserable burn-out because of it. College is supposed to be "fun," and you aren't supposed to be in a constant state of drowsiness because you hate life and no one loves you. Wait a minute... That didn't come out right...
Well, I'm going to check into it at least tomorrow. I'll see if I can actually pull this one off or not...
-Couldn't meet with CPT Spence of the Rutherford County Sheriff's Office Monday because he wouldn't answer his damn phone. He, in turn due to my absence, sent an irate email to Dr. Newman, the Criminal Justice department head at MTSU. She calls me today to inform me that I "royally fucked up" and that it would be "advisable to consider alternative action." So, even though I met with CPT Spence like 3 or 4 times before, some little mishap and the whole thing is canned. $*&@!
-Been working in the regional funeral office in Smyrna for the past couple days in the evenings. It's not bad, but I forget how much I adore doing paperwork. On a non-sarcastic note, I work on a much more solid schedule with fewer hours for the same pay. Yay! I do miss being next to Smyrna Airport with the military helicopters and tanks being so damn busy. It certainly reminds me that we do still have cool toys to play with, so it's not always about the politics.
-I made arrangements to get my side-mirrors repaired from the hail storm last Friday. I'm somewhat surprised I could get an appointment in such short notice, and they come to me! Expensive, however...
-Learned about serial rape/sexual homicide today in Criminal Psychology. I had to walk out about the time he began on about dismemberment with a hacksaw and removal of internal organs for the sexual pleasure... Good God... This world is sickening...
-Finally met with Meiya in Atlanta this evening. She is definitely a no-go. My reasons? She's out of shape, smokes heavily, is a lesbian, and isn't necessarily the brightest crayon in the box. Forgive me for being judgmental, but I don't need that kind of attention at the moment.
-With the recent withdrawal of my internship, I am strongly considering a much different course of action to partake in the path to finish my degree. To put it bluntly, I'm getting very sore and quite bitter that I keep having these ridiculous shortcomings from both school and work. I need to get the hell out of this state, and out of this rental contract...
-Here's the breakdown:
1. I spend entirely too much money on just living expenses - period. (2/3+ at least)
2. I keep letting people down because I have to work too much to keep up.
3. My schooling at MTSU is never going to end.
4. ROTC can shove it.
5. The same goes for my unit for putting me as "last priority" on their list of people to keep with the restructure. I didn't see any of those other bastards drive back and forth for a year from Kansas City to be a part of it.
6. The only good thing about Tennessee is cheap whiskey and concealed carry.
So, here's the plan: Enroll completely in online courses from MTSU for the summer and fall semesters. Enroll at SEMO for whatever the leftovers are (Only two or three more classes besides what I can scrape together from MTSU). Transfer to the Missouri National Guard and begin work with funeral honors there. Work for my brother (finally) at the cafe, pay about 1/3 of the cost to have a place to stay, and tell MTSU ROTC to take a hike.
The way I figure it, with these orders coming in for September, I can pretty easily get out of my housing/rental agreement with the landlord. If he cares to argue, well, I can have JAG take care of that for me. If I can keep the same job in Missouri at the same pay, I would be considerably much better in paying my bills off and actually staying on top of things for once...
Granted, the opportunities here are good, they're not the type of opportunities I need at the moment. I need good stable jobs which people don't want to cut my throat because they want themselves to feel better. Perhaps I just got off on the wrong foot, but this place sucks. At least I know some people back in Cape... Ugh... That and I don't have to work 80+ hours a week to keep up because you can't find legitimate roommates...
Point is that I need to finish my degree, and I don't have to be a miserable burn-out because of it. College is supposed to be "fun," and you aren't supposed to be in a constant state of drowsiness because you hate life and no one loves you. Wait a minute... That didn't come out right...
Well, I'm going to check into it at least tomorrow. I'll see if I can actually pull this one off or not...