sigh
Wow, haven't updated in a while. How many people still read this. How many people still read mine? Heh. Anyways, whats up. I am in college now, the poster of John Belushi with the college shirt comes to mind. Thats kinda how I feel. It sucks being away from everyone. I haven't made friends here because everyone is rich. This is the film school for everyone who wasn't smart enough to go to USC but was rich enough too. Whatever. Hopefully I'll make some friends. Seems like everyone already has friends. All the new friends are gone. Well, I am still a new friend. Whatever. Film is fun and I wish that was all I had to do. The projects are kinda lame and specific but you have to remember that this is an industry and it has guidelines. They don't just give a camera to anybody.
Being away from Meredith is hard. It's hard on her therefore making it hard on me. It's hard to be positive all the time when you alone and barely coming along anyways and then to be positive for two people. Sigh. Still can't get enough of the girl though. Her good moods pay off for the bad ones ten-fold. She's bright and cheery. Can take a joke and gives em right back as well. Good times with Mer. Wish she would chill out though. Sure having alot to do is tough. Screwing up may make it seem not worthwhile but it is. It's just really, really hard to see it now. You are capable of so much and it honestly kills a little part of me when you have already convinced yourself you can't do it. It hurts to see your expectations of yourself so low. I think your parents are idiots and are taking their own self-loathing (your mom anyways, your dad just doesn't care) out on you. That's why I've been trying to get you to hang out with my mom more. Oh well. Talking to you tonight, you seemed to have caught glimpse of a possible path and what feelings it offers you. Talk to you tomorrow. I didn't realize it was five o'clock. Dammit.
To anyone who still remembers me, reply with something nice to say, where you currently are, and some general advice anyone could use. Night.
Being away from Meredith is hard. It's hard on her therefore making it hard on me. It's hard to be positive all the time when you alone and barely coming along anyways and then to be positive for two people. Sigh. Still can't get enough of the girl though. Her good moods pay off for the bad ones ten-fold. She's bright and cheery. Can take a joke and gives em right back as well. Good times with Mer. Wish she would chill out though. Sure having alot to do is tough. Screwing up may make it seem not worthwhile but it is. It's just really, really hard to see it now. You are capable of so much and it honestly kills a little part of me when you have already convinced yourself you can't do it. It hurts to see your expectations of yourself so low. I think your parents are idiots and are taking their own self-loathing (your mom anyways, your dad just doesn't care) out on you. That's why I've been trying to get you to hang out with my mom more. Oh well. Talking to you tonight, you seemed to have caught glimpse of a possible path and what feelings it offers you. Talk to you tomorrow. I didn't realize it was five o'clock. Dammit.
To anyone who still remembers me, reply with something nice to say, where you currently are, and some general advice anyone could use. Night.