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so yeah... a lot going on lately... just crazy stuff... like for example the deal with Monica's sister... yeah... I just wish everyone would not be mad... it's not going to accomplish anything by being mad... I mean, sure I'm sad that that's the way it is... I wish I could go back and change it, but there's nothing I can do about it, that's the way life is, just gotta deal with it... sure you can always wish, and that's probably what I'll end up doing... but still... life just plain sucks... you know, I don't even remember how many times I hadn't made that promise to everyone... but at the same time I'm glad... it's just weird... I guess now is just one of these times... just too much going on, and then this... I'll try to stay positive... but I don't know how long that'll hold out... just hafta try to move on I reckon... except I don't really know if I want to... maybe I should turn gay... probably have a better chance... idk... idfk! it's just too confusing... I just wish all this stuff would go away... and that for one full day I could be happy... but no... that's not how it is, nor how it will ever be. I'm not asking for your sympathy, I'm just posting on my livejournal... if you don't want me to let out how I really feel, please let me know and I'll just stop posting... I really feel like shit... like a stupid dumbass... I feel like a sore pathetic loser... and that there's nothing I can do about it... I feel like there will never be someone to hold, even just to hug, or to sit under the stars and talk... or to take a walk... (that rhymes btw... :P just tryin to lighten up my mood) just to have someone who will always be there for me... someone to have, and to hold... but yeah... now I sound incredibly stupid... sorry... I just don't know why I feel down... I mean, there's really no reason to feel that way right? so why am I always like that? I just wish it would go away... there I go... wishing again... if I had a nickel for every wish I made that didn't come true, I'd be the richest man in the world... but yeah... I just wish something would work out or something... I'm running out of options... Les Quiero ~Nick