by the way...
if anyone's wondering what the hell i'm doing on here, perhaps i should explain a little: all of these things i'm doing are exercises suggested in the book 'No Acting Please', written by Eric Morris and Joan Hotchkis. I haven't yet decided that I want to actually be an actor, i think i'm really doing this as a self-development thing. I want to learn a little more about myself and these exercises are quite effective tools for peeling back the layers that cover what I don't want people to see. So sometimes it'll be a bit nasty on here. But that's allowed. I'm entitled to feel anything about anything/anyone (within some loose moral framework) and they're entitled to the same. Some of the exercises are streams of consciousness and are thus to some degree unfiltered/unedited as they're performed spontaneously. So when i say "I want to die" (which I noticed i've typed a few times), that should not be taken as a truth, it's just the first word that came into my head after i typed "i want". In other words; don't worry about me if you see those words. I have no real desire for physical death.. perhaps ego death (that might explain it).