i want
i want a life, i want a tree, i want to finish this rush hour album, i want to be big and strong, or at least be able to act big and strong, i want to date as many girls as possible, i want to talk to every girl in the room, i want to be cool, i want to sing really well, i want to finish my paintings, i want to learn how to draw really well, i want to play at a festival, i want to be a better drummer, i want to be a better guitarist, i want to have a reason and an ability to express myself through songs, i want to have the guts to play the guitar and sing in front of people, i want to make everyone laugh, i want to help people and be selfish sometimes, i want to move to the countryside, i want the rush hour album to sound at least as good as in utero, i want to send mixed signals, i want to be in control and surrender control, i want the ability to shift between quadrants of my personality at will, i want to be as good at flirting with girls as i used to be when i was eighteen years old, i want to have a fight with someone, i want to learn karate, i want a few tattoos but i can't think of what to have, i want to be original, i want to punch quite a few people i know, i want some new glasses, i want to travel more, i want my own home, i want to look over there, i want to open my heart, i want to understand myself, i want to integrate, i want to paint every dream i can recall and paint them well, i want to earn enough money to free myself from the clutches of authority in all its forms, i want to win my case against the council, i want back all the money that my bank has taken off me in completely disproportionate and - i believe - illegal overdraft fees, i want a phone that always works, i want to act, i want to understand my emotions, i want the ability to rid myself of all tension at any time, i want to drink less and smoke more, i want to play a gig in japan before i die, i want a guild m20 guitar, i want kids someday, i want to lead a more spiritual life, i want to learn a transcendental spiritual truth at least once every six months, i want to evolve mentally, physically, spiritually and psychologically, i want to fly but be grounded