Work and working
I got a job at Speed Way a couple of days ago. I'm a third shifter... that sucks. Hopefully I can show others that by having this job, I won't be "irresponsible". Thanks Mom... Anyway, I have a lot on my plate right now, starting this job that I know I won't enjoy for less money than I should receive. Also, I can't seem to have fun anymore. For whatever reason, I somehow won't allow myself to, and I end up ruining people's days because I have this subconscious mentality that if I can't have fun, nobody will. It just gets irritating.
Other than Speed Way, nothing new and exciting has happened. I still feel the same way, and that will never change. I wish I didn't hope sometimes. I could make it so much easier if I just cut my losses, but how can I? Ugh... life shouldn't be this hard. It should be enjoyable, and I should be able to share everything I have to let other people know how you're supposed to feel - HAPPINESS.
Other than Speed Way, nothing new and exciting has happened. I still feel the same way, and that will never change. I wish I didn't hope sometimes. I could make it so much easier if I just cut my losses, but how can I? Ugh... life shouldn't be this hard. It should be enjoyable, and I should be able to share everything I have to let other people know how you're supposed to feel - HAPPINESS.