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[nice_daria]

so... tired... must... sleep...
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my NYC apartment, 
for the first time in a full 8 months,
now has the power to make...
"ice."

i am slowly, but surely,
honing in on my dharma.

i have realized how much i miss the 90's,
and i am reliving them blissfully via (mostly):
music and cartoons.
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the general manager for  top of the rock referred
to me the other day as (and this a quote):
----->"the shining star of the [rockefeller] plaza"

this could have made me happy.  and a little it did.
but for the most part, it was an humiliating experience.

kind of like one of your professors saying to you:
---"gee [your name], you're pretty -good- with shapes."
or
---"you sure know your colors good."
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it's just becoming clear this is not the job for me.
everyone (in the office too) who finds out 
i'm leaving says, "good for you!"

i haven't even said what else i'm going to do.
as if... whatever it is, it must be
---a priori---
better than what i've got now.

the only people who don't know are my bosses.
... ... ... ... ... ... ... i'm getting there, i'm getting there.
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listening to lots of ben folds