mixed up, messed up
I can;t keep my mind straight as of what I want exactly. I am having the easiest time with my break up with Rob and I can't seem to grasp why I'm not more upset. It just doesn't make sense. lol. We're trying to 'establish' a friendship.. so he's still in my life, maybe thats why everything seems to be okay... I don't get it. I thought that I was okay, that I didn't want to have a relationship with this man.. It seems like that's the truth but I also feel like if he wanted to work things out, I'd be for that, too. I'm guessing maybe, it's because we've been through so much in these part 2 years that I can either -- take it or leave it-- and that doesn't seem to phase me. It's fucking weird. I wish I could understand myself better, but I guess that I'm okay taking it one day at a time and not losing sleep over it.
No other news going on.. I'm on vacation next week from both jobs [woot!] and I fully intend on sleeping majority of the days and doing nothing constructive. ;) my new years resolutions are: no more soda, quitting smoking, bye bye greasey foods, and managing my money better. I'm sure I'm missing a whole bunch but those are the top priorities. Time to take charge -- yar! eh.. I'm off to clean up the mess that Rob left behind when he was moving his stuff....
toodles.
No other news going on.. I'm on vacation next week from both jobs [woot!] and I fully intend on sleeping majority of the days and doing nothing constructive. ;) my new years resolutions are: no more soda, quitting smoking, bye bye greasey foods, and managing my money better. I'm sure I'm missing a whole bunch but those are the top priorities. Time to take charge -- yar! eh.. I'm off to clean up the mess that Rob left behind when he was moving his stuff....
toodles.