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I was on my way home from my lecture just now, when I realised I hadn't posted for a while. I started mentally composing my post (as you do) which very quickly deteriorated into a rather wanky moan about how I felt like I was being overwhelmed with work, how I wasn't going to get a decent break at Christmas, how my computer breaking in the middle of term couldn't have happened at a worse time and how I was worried I might not get top marks in my coursework this term.
Then it started raining.
And I thought, great, now I'm wet as well.
Then I realised the rain was cold.
And I thought, brilliant, now I'm cold and wet.
Then it started raining harder.
And I thought, for FUCKSAKE!
And then it started to hail.
By which stage it had become sublime in it's ridiculousness and I had to laugh.
And by the time it had started raining still harder I had realised that I wasn't cut out to be emo, and that I was depressing myself with irrelevant bollcoks.
So I say BEGONE NEGATIVITY!!!! and will instead list the things in my life that make me happy.
I have my health.
I have my friends, who don't just put up with my eccentricities, but positively encourage them.
I have my family whom I love and who are always there for me when I need them.
I am living in a city I love, studying a subject I love (most of the time) that will help me get a job that I will love.
I have a shiny new computer.
I'm going home for Christmas in less than a week, and I can pretend, even if only for a few days, that I'm five again.
Pretending that I'm five again is something I can do quite often.
I have waking up on a Saturday and realising that my hot water bottle is still warm and I don't have to get up.
I have coming in from the cold and snuggling under a blanket.
I have lazy Sundays reading fic.
I have all of my shiny things.
I get to watch my friends and family open Christmas presents that I hope they will love.
And to the emo goblins I say fuck off, you won't be taking up residence in my brain.
And as soon as I thought all this, it stopped raining. Go figure.
So now, I shall put on Christmas music, start writing the report for THE MOST AWESOME COURSEWORK EVAH! and remember how lucky I am.
Then it started raining.
And I thought, great, now I'm wet as well.
Then I realised the rain was cold.
And I thought, brilliant, now I'm cold and wet.
Then it started raining harder.
And I thought, for FUCKSAKE!
And then it started to hail.
By which stage it had become sublime in it's ridiculousness and I had to laugh.
And by the time it had started raining still harder I had realised that I wasn't cut out to be emo, and that I was depressing myself with irrelevant bollcoks.
So I say BEGONE NEGATIVITY!!!! and will instead list the things in my life that make me happy.
I have my health.
I have my friends, who don't just put up with my eccentricities, but positively encourage them.
I have my family whom I love and who are always there for me when I need them.
I am living in a city I love, studying a subject I love (most of the time) that will help me get a job that I will love.
I have a shiny new computer.
I'm going home for Christmas in less than a week, and I can pretend, even if only for a few days, that I'm five again.
Pretending that I'm five again is something I can do quite often.
I have waking up on a Saturday and realising that my hot water bottle is still warm and I don't have to get up.
I have coming in from the cold and snuggling under a blanket.
I have lazy Sundays reading fic.
I have all of my shiny things.
I get to watch my friends and family open Christmas presents that I hope they will love.
And to the emo goblins I say fuck off, you won't be taking up residence in my brain.
And as soon as I thought all this, it stopped raining. Go figure.
So now, I shall put on Christmas music, start writing the report for THE MOST AWESOME COURSEWORK EVAH! and remember how lucky I am.