Beyond Regrets

[niayesungie]

Title:  Beyond Regrets
Characters:  Yesung, Siwon, Hangeng, Heechul, OC
Pairings:  Yewon, Siwon/OC, brief!Hanchul
Genre: Angst, implied!smut
Rating: NC-17
Summary:  Regrets always awfully hurt.
Disclaimer:  I only own the story and the plot.  The characters in the fic don't resembling the real characters in their real life.

Comments

[lulufeca]

oh so sad! but siwon drugging yesung to tell how he loved him... was a i little crazy but,... so sweet and loving!

[niayesungie]

i thought the same. though it's crazy, creepy, but it just show how much Siwon loves Yesung (and his body ehm). may i ask you, which one was more dominant in SIwon, in your opinion: his love or his lust?

[lulufeca]

my oppinion? i will give my psychology student oppinion and not a reader´s

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[niayesungie]

wow i love your comment! i really fond in analyzing people actually,though i'm not in psychology major! ^_

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[lulufeca]

YAY COOKIES! \o/

Well, what Siwon did could be callled sexua abuse, even without penetration.. and if he thinks he can do that to Yesung because he loves him: he got a mental sickness. he misunderstood love and lust.

your fic is very rich to analyze! really, i am thinking hard about mental sickness about love. Because some people think what they are feeling is love, in some part of their life it got a different meaning and start to hurt anothers without knowing.

Your Siwon loves God, no? maybe the message he got at church was so strong to love a woman and not love a boy, when he is sexually atracted to man it can twist a mind or make him feel guilty. Maybe Yesung was a person he really admired or loved, but felt guilty to love then turned to lust and all turned wrong in his brain.

And Yesung was a very hard boy, he should have told someone or just talk to Siwon. Yesung would be another case to analyze...

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[niayesungie]

omg you're opening my eyes! i never thought about sexual abuse here. so, Yesung could sue him for sexual harrasment if actually he didn't love Siwon, right? oh then i feel bad for SIwon, his mental sickness! he should've work hard to ret Yesung's love right from the start of the feelings instead of this, no? mental sickness then meant no love? :( then love is really hard to analyze eh, with too many complications in psychologic study

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[lulufeca]

omg! you wrote this with your heart! its special for you

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[niayesungie]

hi Brazil! and what's your name? I'm Nia nice to know you ^^ usually my angst were written whenever i got bad moods, and you know that girls' feelings are a lot more active than their brains xD so please bare with my psychological failed fics :B

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[lulufeca]

My name is Luciana, but if you want you can call me Luci

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[niayesungie]

you have the same name with my auntie. we call her auntie Ana, then... and she's very pretty although rather strict hihihi.
oh, how was your boyfriend? i'm sorry to hear that. but yes, sometimes we could do WONDER when we're stressed. but sometimes unability to do anything also caused by it. so being depressed wasn't always so bad right.
i read it somewhere about our experience could affect our beings. and i agree with you. childhood experience, especially, almost could never be healed :(
but didn't the real inner character of the person could affect their life too, past their experiences? because how could Yesung be such a caring, helpful person while he is lacked of love from others around him? that is one thing i'm so proud about him... it's his inner beauty that shines out of him :)
btw, why i can't reply your comment on my drabbles? it ended up became a reply for another person (1 attempt) and become an independent comment (2nd attempt). I'm sorry bb :(
*what about my ice cream? still wanna?*

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[lulufeca]

my ex-boyfriend? i dont know i havent seen him for 3 years already. He is a silly boy, no need to know.

yeah, your caracter affects you, the outside word and everything. Almost everything affects how you interact with people and how you see the world around you.

i am proud of Jongwoon too ^__________________^

low fat ice cream? i want

*sorry, its late. i was working at a graduation ceremony... *

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[niayesungie]

so you are graduating now? from college? waa ^^
*give you flowers*

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[lulufeca]

no no. my university got some students to help at every graduation ceremony (and pay us). its good for me to work and meet different people, some people are soooo rude to us... and others soooo nice and funny, heeh

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[niayesungie]

oh i thought you're the one who's graduating, hehhe. btw, in what semester are you in college? i'm already in my 5th semester and i really feel old at campus <(O,o)> and i like the working at graduation! i wish i could get such kinda part-time job or momentary job here, but i don't think this is th right time for part-time, so i prefer ones like yours... earning money is so yum! :p

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[lulufeca]

i am a little late at college.... psychology is 10 semesters, i am at 9 semester, but need need to do 2 years of internship (i will start next semester --- working at a health center in a poor place with children who dont go to school yet)

this job is very fun. today was cool, i dont like medicine and law because they treat like nothing. and today everyone was smiling and doing cute things (today was turism and mathematic at my place)