uni work is funny
yes. going to uni to do work is a very funny thing indeed.
god. thesis is due not too far away. i actually should do something.
me is confused about the universe at the moment. there is something funny with my head. it's not fun. i feel. disorented. a lot. and confused. a lot. about. i don't know. just confused. going to doctor again on wed. as the doctor i went to today was completely useless. just handed me scripts and told me to watch my weight if i am putting it on. God. does it look like i am worried about being overweight? No. i am worried about gaining two cup sizes in my titties in two weeks, and my bottom getting bigger, because i eat no animal fats, and i exercise for an hour 4 days a week. i dont care about it for aesthetic reasons; i look better than i ever have with my big bum and titties. i like it. its just. weird. that and i feel like i am going... strange in the head.
i don't know.
things i do know at the moment:
i love my noogie. he is the best thing.
i love our new cat. his name is melnik, and he is soft and white and grey, and plays fetch. i like throwing balls of paper for him to catch, and cuddling him. and playing 'let's attack my hands/socks/feet/table/fabric'.
sigur ros were amazing. amazing. they were almost overwhelming. it was almost... too good. too pure. too rich. it was an amazing music experience. so was tujiko noriko. so beautiful.
i miss my chicken.
i am spending too much, but i feel crazy and spending is like the new self mutilation, it makes me feel real. things. solid. me solid too. money is less solid than things. ohh. stockings and cds and books and skincare that will make my pimples go away. Yay.
i am enjoying my lesbian book a lot. as always.
i still havent gotten my issue of bitch magazine, and that is upsetting me.
i like cuddles.
i can make felt.
i don't like having my period, because it is irritating. i feel bloated.
i have a new stupid hat. i am allowing myself to wear stupid hats. because. I Like Them.
god. thesis is due not too far away. i actually should do something.
me is confused about the universe at the moment. there is something funny with my head. it's not fun. i feel. disorented. a lot. and confused. a lot. about. i don't know. just confused. going to doctor again on wed. as the doctor i went to today was completely useless. just handed me scripts and told me to watch my weight if i am putting it on. God. does it look like i am worried about being overweight? No. i am worried about gaining two cup sizes in my titties in two weeks, and my bottom getting bigger, because i eat no animal fats, and i exercise for an hour 4 days a week. i dont care about it for aesthetic reasons; i look better than i ever have with my big bum and titties. i like it. its just. weird. that and i feel like i am going... strange in the head.
i don't know.
things i do know at the moment:
i love my noogie. he is the best thing.
i love our new cat. his name is melnik, and he is soft and white and grey, and plays fetch. i like throwing balls of paper for him to catch, and cuddling him. and playing 'let's attack my hands/socks/feet/table/fabric'.
sigur ros were amazing. amazing. they were almost overwhelming. it was almost... too good. too pure. too rich. it was an amazing music experience. so was tujiko noriko. so beautiful.
i miss my chicken.
i am spending too much, but i feel crazy and spending is like the new self mutilation, it makes me feel real. things. solid. me solid too. money is less solid than things. ohh. stockings and cds and books and skincare that will make my pimples go away. Yay.
i am enjoying my lesbian book a lot. as always.
i still havent gotten my issue of bitch magazine, and that is upsetting me.
i like cuddles.
i can make felt.
i don't like having my period, because it is irritating. i feel bloated.
i have a new stupid hat. i am allowing myself to wear stupid hats. because. I Like Them.