01012012
Tonight I am snappy and irritable because I am doing all the wrong things.
I'm even listening to mixes on 8tracks tagged "heartbreak" just because I want to listen to sad songs and linger in this mood.
I am impatient, contained in my own self-disappointment. It isn't just disappointment. It's always a mix of many things, yet through this murky mix I know what really has to be done. I know what I have to change.
And also, I struggle with accepting god's grace.
I am snapping at my siblings. I want to be alone.