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It's strange to think that I could have the one I love in my life, and yet my heart be breaking.
Watching her, in her beautiful bright red coat, smile at me after that kiss, bittersweet, then turn to walk down the hallway - out of my arms.
It's hard to describe this pain. I have been fighting tears all day. It's 2 in the morning, and I can't sleep. I'm waiting up for her. I miss her more than I miss my childhood. More than I could ever imagine any "missingness"
God... I pray that you keep her safe for me. I pray that she'll come home, and we'll be all the more stronger. I pray that I won't forget the way she smells, the way she kisses, the way we love each other.
Baby, I'm out of words. I could barely breathe watching you go. I felt like I was being stabbed, but I think being stabbed would have been infinitely easier. I hope you know how much I love you, how much my heart is aching right now. I know I'll come visit, but it still is too long for me to be without my air, my heart, my blood, my happiness, my skin, my angel, my everything. You, baby...
I want to fall on my knees and beg you to come home. I want you back in my arms. I don't want to have to be without you this semester.
Cécile... you are the one I want to have children with. The one I want to marry. When you finally close your eyes to get some sleep, imagine this:
Me, asleep by your side in the early morning in our bed. The sun gently rising on our house with the purple front door, your Audi and my truck parked just in front. Our beautiful yard. Our farm, with the brown cow grazing, maybe a horse. Our kids will be asleep, and the puppy at the foot of our bed. I'll roll in closer to you, wrapping my arms around you tight so nothing or no one can take you away from me. I'll kiss you, and exhale, more peaceful than I have ever been in my entire life, having the woman I love, this Angel, blessing me and saving me each moment in her bright, burning presence.
You set me alight. It hurts, and it doesn't. All at once. I want to be your husband, your best friend, and do everything for you that you have done for me.
I'm going to go upstairs and lie down. I don't know if they have service at the airport or not, I don't know if you're there yet or not. I hope that I can keep my simple eyes and mind awake until I hear from you. If they fail me, then I pray that you come to me in my dreams. I will be around all day tomorrow. I guess for you, that would be like anytime after 4pm? My heart hurts a lot right now, and I'm crying all over again.
I am yours.
Watching her, in her beautiful bright red coat, smile at me after that kiss, bittersweet, then turn to walk down the hallway - out of my arms.
It's hard to describe this pain. I have been fighting tears all day. It's 2 in the morning, and I can't sleep. I'm waiting up for her. I miss her more than I miss my childhood. More than I could ever imagine any "missingness"
God... I pray that you keep her safe for me. I pray that she'll come home, and we'll be all the more stronger. I pray that I won't forget the way she smells, the way she kisses, the way we love each other.
Baby, I'm out of words. I could barely breathe watching you go. I felt like I was being stabbed, but I think being stabbed would have been infinitely easier. I hope you know how much I love you, how much my heart is aching right now. I know I'll come visit, but it still is too long for me to be without my air, my heart, my blood, my happiness, my skin, my angel, my everything. You, baby...
I want to fall on my knees and beg you to come home. I want you back in my arms. I don't want to have to be without you this semester.
Cécile... you are the one I want to have children with. The one I want to marry. When you finally close your eyes to get some sleep, imagine this:
Me, asleep by your side in the early morning in our bed. The sun gently rising on our house with the purple front door, your Audi and my truck parked just in front. Our beautiful yard. Our farm, with the brown cow grazing, maybe a horse. Our kids will be asleep, and the puppy at the foot of our bed. I'll roll in closer to you, wrapping my arms around you tight so nothing or no one can take you away from me. I'll kiss you, and exhale, more peaceful than I have ever been in my entire life, having the woman I love, this Angel, blessing me and saving me each moment in her bright, burning presence.
You set me alight. It hurts, and it doesn't. All at once. I want to be your husband, your best friend, and do everything for you that you have done for me.
I'm going to go upstairs and lie down. I don't know if they have service at the airport or not, I don't know if you're there yet or not. I hope that I can keep my simple eyes and mind awake until I hear from you. If they fail me, then I pray that you come to me in my dreams. I will be around all day tomorrow. I guess for you, that would be like anytime after 4pm? My heart hurts a lot right now, and I'm crying all over again.
I am yours.