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so like everything i thought was gunna be there is gone. we talked once this week over myspace kinda of. and so remind me again why the hell i try? why am i the kind of person that feelings burn out over? why do i invest so much, why do i fall so hard even though i know nothing will come out of it? so tonight of course as always, to keep myself together i know ill just end up fucking myself up. smoking, drinking. whatever. if i didnt have work tomorrow and i had enough, id just drink until i passed out. but i dont even kno if i have any. maybe hannah will be up and i can talk to her. im so tired of fucking hurting all the damn time.