Happy Thanksgiving!
I'm home for thanksgiving...its not bad, i enjoy seeing and spending time with my family. it's weird not really having many friends around here anymore though. i mean i can call people and hang out with them but i don't consider them real friends bc when i leave their not there anymore. i saw tulpa last night....for the first time in 5 months. i wasn't sure what to expect...it was kinda just like really good friends hanging out n talkin bout life. we didn't bring up our standings n he didn't try any moves on me..i think we were both kinda unsure of what to expect and how to act at first. but i'm really glad i got to see him...it made me realize alot, and i don't really like him like that anymore...i mean yeah theres always that thought but pretty sure nothing will ever happen between us and i'm okay with that now, ask me last week and i wouldn't have been. i really just think that the reason why i liked him so much was because he gave me that amazing feeling that i hadn't had in sooo long over the summer and i just missed that feeling and kept thinking i could get it back from him...but i won't. and hes not good enough for me....to much drinking/smoking/undecided w. life...it would only bring me down really in the long run. now that i think about it...this summer was sooo amazing...but it was just all like a fantasy...as much fun as i had and it was the best summer ever...it just ended. it all ended outta no where and i think thats how i decided who true friends really are. bc no matter where you are your true friends will want to still talk to you and keep in touch, not stab you behind your back when you leave or wonder if they will ever see you again in life. so thats my outtake on westland right now. not horrible but not amazing....just enjoying time w. family and close friends. happy thanksgiving everyone :D