random update
i don't really have anything to say except that i'm in a really weird mood right now. and i don't want to go to bed because i'm starting to have horrible dreams again. they stopped for a few weeks and started again last night so i'm scared to go to sleep tonight which sounds dumb but i'm just being honest. i had a pretty random week, i drank 4 nights in a row....all on accident...and now i feel overtired and wanting to die, lol. it was a fun weekend though, andy (state boy) came up and we hung out all weekend, which was fun....i like him but i don't know how much. is that weird? i just think that i'm really not in the right state of mind to have a serious relationship with anyone...i just wanna do my own thing, which scares me bc then i'm like hmmm i wonder how long this phase is gonna last and then i'll end up alone. but i know in the end everyting works out so i'm not to worried about anything. i'm having a lot of fun at GVSU this year, its kinda nice actually knowing people and knowing whats around this place now....bc last year if it weren't for kassie i prolly would've hated GV. i'm def. living here this summer...in fact i already know i'm living in gd rapids until i find a real professional job. bc i hate westland....and i have every right too. its actually kinda sad how much i despise that city....oh well. so i'm going on spring break with kassie morgan and claire...its the perfect set up ever. i'm turning 21 march 2 so we're goign to chicago and march 3 we're flying out from chicago to go to south padre for 7 nights :) how much fun! i'm really looking forward to it...ALOT! thats the only thing keeping me going right now haha...bc i hate winter....south padre will get me through this winter...lol. alright its getting late and i have to wake up in 8 hours...so maybe i'll go to bed and hope to not have nightmares! goodnight!