Chocolate is Cheaper than Prozac
OK, the thing is, I'm in a slump. I'm withdrawn, irritable, moody, unproductive, unmotivated, discouraged and generally down in the dumps. I'm behind on bills and paperwork, I'm apprehensive about taxes and dealing with the ex, I'm having more pain again, which isn't helping.
Some of this is physical, some of it is cyclical, some of it is just out of the blue. I keep trying to just kick start myself, and it isn't working. I'm feeling resentful of the energy I end up spending taking care of other people, and that isn't good. Usually I love caring for my friends, but right now I just feel like shouting, "I can't save you, dammit! Save your goddamned selves."
It's stupid. It's a gorgeous spring day outside, and I should be happy, but telling myself that is having no effect at all except to make me more obstinate and peevish. I am sick of living with my inner toddler. She needs a fucking nap, and I need a babysitter to take her off my hands and let me go soak in a hotsprings somewhere.
To everyone who wants or needs things from me, forgive me. I'm kind of losing it. I'll get over myself eventually.
I'm going to try dark chocolate, and if that doesn't work, maybe a rum and coke.
Some of this is physical, some of it is cyclical, some of it is just out of the blue. I keep trying to just kick start myself, and it isn't working. I'm feeling resentful of the energy I end up spending taking care of other people, and that isn't good. Usually I love caring for my friends, but right now I just feel like shouting, "I can't save you, dammit! Save your goddamned selves."
It's stupid. It's a gorgeous spring day outside, and I should be happy, but telling myself that is having no effect at all except to make me more obstinate and peevish. I am sick of living with my inner toddler. She needs a fucking nap, and I need a babysitter to take her off my hands and let me go soak in a hotsprings somewhere.
To everyone who wants or needs things from me, forgive me. I'm kind of losing it. I'll get over myself eventually.
I'm going to try dark chocolate, and if that doesn't work, maybe a rum and coke.