comfort.
i haven't been wanting to go to school much lately and i've been limiting time that i usually dedicate to getting all dolled up for it. i guess i don't care much anymore because the only one i care to get ready for is someone an hour away. with saying that.. that's probably the reason i dont want to go to school anymore because all i wanna do is be outta freeport and in rochelle or in rockford. and im sure everyone has heard the "guys think about sex every 15 seconds of every day" thing, well.. im pretty sure it's like a... bean thinks about craig every 15 seconds of every day.. thing. a little more than week left of school and i graduate and i couldn't want it anymore.
all i wanna do is what im doing right now which is sitting on the lap of the boy i love with our dirty ass hair, watching home videos, drinking root beer floats, and cuddling.
leaving here seems harder than it used to be. im pretty sure i used to be able to pick up and leave just fine. well... with like 20 minute goodbyes but still. the goodbyes are still as long but i guess they're kinda.. painful.. maybe is the word. sometimes it just hits hard that i can't wake up to him every morning or i cant just call him up and say im coming over, i'll be there in 10 minutes. but like i said before, im thankful every god damn day for craig and i mean that with every ounce of truth i've got.
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this entry isn't a cry for help or anything of that sort. i just miss my boyfriend, nothing big. it's for me to realize that i need to keep my head up every second of every day because i've got something amazing.
all i wanna do is what im doing right now which is sitting on the lap of the boy i love with our dirty ass hair, watching home videos, drinking root beer floats, and cuddling.
leaving here seems harder than it used to be. im pretty sure i used to be able to pick up and leave just fine. well... with like 20 minute goodbyes but still. the goodbyes are still as long but i guess they're kinda.. painful.. maybe is the word. sometimes it just hits hard that i can't wake up to him every morning or i cant just call him up and say im coming over, i'll be there in 10 minutes. but like i said before, im thankful every god damn day for craig and i mean that with every ounce of truth i've got.
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this entry isn't a cry for help or anything of that sort. i just miss my boyfriend, nothing big. it's for me to realize that i need to keep my head up every second of every day because i've got something amazing.