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Our Society Is Really Screwed Up.
I Could Go On About That Forever But I Know Nobody Cares To Listen Anymore.
I Nearly Got Run Over By A Huge Gas Guzzling Air Ruining Truck Today.
Today Was Screwed Up. I Can Say Why On Here Cuz Nobody Will Make Fun Of Me (its mostly ann *yes, stevens* that i hav to worry about)
Im So ADD i cant freakin drive!.. i couldnt even focus enough to park.. i ran over a tree & a sign. Some guy stood & stared i was ready to kill him it was so rude.. doesnt he know i feel stupid enough!?!? like hes never hit anything ever!! YEA FUCKING RIGHT!..
so yeah. i try to take medicine for it but everytime i went to my doctor she started talking about my brother again.. everything is about him lately!! EVERYTHING.. so i stopped going. she's the only doctor on my insurance near me (still 30 minutes away) ugh. it sucks. i cant go back.
i have a driving lesson today... the last time the guy didnt teach me. this time im gona say it nicely but he better teach me or i WILL drive myself home! seriously!!
ugh.
yesterday was real screwed up. my family argued & fought non-stop. i'd give the world to move out. i love my family dont get me wrong. but everybody knows we need to be seperated. im still scared of my bro. hes tried to kill somebody before but nobody listens to me. he used to beat me up after school everyday.. im still afraid he'll go back to it again.. i was limping a few months ago because he fucked up my knee. ugh. its sucks.
life sucks right now.
im trying to hang with the hope of a tolerable future. things are looking bright.
IVE GOT A 3.4 GPA (2.3ish last year) So I Might Be Able to go to NAU!?!? i duno. i really wana. Im looking at it with my friend nathalie in january i think. i miss her alot. that'd be amazing if we went to school together.
ohh.. i got braces haha.
surgery on my foot & an expander next thursday.
oral surgery sometime soon.
yeahh.. thats my life.
hangin is getting harder each day.
but i couldnt stand to see my friends the way the were the day andrew died.
this only pertains to kelly bennion really but... Henry Getts Is Getting Ready To Go, They Took Away His Life Support, He's The Sweetest Guy. I Almost cried when i heard that @ the party last night. He's Not Too Upset Though, He Knows Its His Time & Thats Good. His Loved No Matter What!! <3
[When I See Your Smile, Tears Run Down My Face.]
[Sam Comes Home In 9 Days, Thinking Of That Keeps Me Sane.]
[Ashlie Comes Home On Dec. 21.. It's TOO Far Away.]
[I Need My Old Friends, My Old Life.]
[Ashlie Is Happy Though, That Brings Happy Tears To My Eyes]
[She'll Always Be My Best Friend No Matter How Far Away She Is]
[She Means The World To Me]
* Im Done With Saint Barnasbas As Soon As I Get My License (at this rate thats forever) theyre hypocrites, i sat in the service last week & almost walked out, i couldnt stand to look at them.. im still teaching so the kids dont end up like most of them *
.. the party was fun last night btw!
okayy im done. <3
I Could Go On About That Forever But I Know Nobody Cares To Listen Anymore.
I Nearly Got Run Over By A Huge Gas Guzzling Air Ruining Truck Today.
Today Was Screwed Up. I Can Say Why On Here Cuz Nobody Will Make Fun Of Me (its mostly ann *yes, stevens* that i hav to worry about)
Im So ADD i cant freakin drive!.. i couldnt even focus enough to park.. i ran over a tree & a sign. Some guy stood & stared i was ready to kill him it was so rude.. doesnt he know i feel stupid enough!?!? like hes never hit anything ever!! YEA FUCKING RIGHT!..
so yeah. i try to take medicine for it but everytime i went to my doctor she started talking about my brother again.. everything is about him lately!! EVERYTHING.. so i stopped going. she's the only doctor on my insurance near me (still 30 minutes away) ugh. it sucks. i cant go back.
i have a driving lesson today... the last time the guy didnt teach me. this time im gona say it nicely but he better teach me or i WILL drive myself home! seriously!!
ugh.
yesterday was real screwed up. my family argued & fought non-stop. i'd give the world to move out. i love my family dont get me wrong. but everybody knows we need to be seperated. im still scared of my bro. hes tried to kill somebody before but nobody listens to me. he used to beat me up after school everyday.. im still afraid he'll go back to it again.. i was limping a few months ago because he fucked up my knee. ugh. its sucks.
life sucks right now.
im trying to hang with the hope of a tolerable future. things are looking bright.
IVE GOT A 3.4 GPA (2.3ish last year) So I Might Be Able to go to NAU!?!? i duno. i really wana. Im looking at it with my friend nathalie in january i think. i miss her alot. that'd be amazing if we went to school together.
ohh.. i got braces haha.
surgery on my foot & an expander next thursday.
oral surgery sometime soon.
yeahh.. thats my life.
hangin is getting harder each day.
but i couldnt stand to see my friends the way the were the day andrew died.
this only pertains to kelly bennion really but... Henry Getts Is Getting Ready To Go, They Took Away His Life Support, He's The Sweetest Guy. I Almost cried when i heard that @ the party last night. He's Not Too Upset Though, He Knows Its His Time & Thats Good. His Loved No Matter What!! <3
[When I See Your Smile, Tears Run Down My Face.]
[Sam Comes Home In 9 Days, Thinking Of That Keeps Me Sane.]
[Ashlie Comes Home On Dec. 21.. It's TOO Far Away.]
[I Need My Old Friends, My Old Life.]
[Ashlie Is Happy Though, That Brings Happy Tears To My Eyes]
[She'll Always Be My Best Friend No Matter How Far Away She Is]
[She Means The World To Me]
* Im Done With Saint Barnasbas As Soon As I Get My License (at this rate thats forever) theyre hypocrites, i sat in the service last week & almost walked out, i couldnt stand to look at them.. im still teaching so the kids dont end up like most of them *
.. the party was fun last night btw!
okayy im done. <3