in love again
I just want to be in love again. I am quickly developing this pattern of having casual sex with people because in the moment my horomones tell me its what I need and that I can be just as detatched as others can be. I can just have sex for sex sake. But then after, when all is said and done, its not what I want at all. During, its great, after I want to be loved. I want someone to do all those stupid I'm in love with you shitty cliche' bullshit things. I want the googly eyes, and the can't spend ten mins away from you, and the smile just cause you're here, and the lay in bed all day, and the general uphoria that come with being in love. I miss that. And even after the sex, and being told I'm definately desireable, why do I still, no matter how many times I hear it from any number of people do feel like the ugliest, most undesirable person alive?