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Okay, so I have developed the theory that clothing stores hate obese people. The clothing never fits right, and most of it is so frumpy and ugly that I feel like they are saying, "Well, you're lucky we make clothing for you at all". I have avoided clothing shopping for years. I used to go to the mall and come home, lock myself in my room and just cry because I saw myself as so ugly. All of the pretty clothes was for the thinner people, and I was doomed to wearing this kind of clothing forever.
I've gotten a little more confidence than then, but I still will only get clothing if it is a present. Most of my clothes are worn out, have holes, or are threadbare. I've let myself go to the mall on occasion, maybe a few times a year, to look for accessories. After all, those don't have a size on them.
So last week, my sister and I went to the mall, and I was planning just to look at accessories like a scarf on clearance or something. Then I saw the cutest dress! As much as I hate to admit that I like clothes, I had been looking for a dress. And they were on clearance! I went to look at them, and the largest size they had was a 20. I tried it on and it was too small. I was really sad, but I got it anyway.
It's hanging on the outside of my closet where I can see it everyday. One day I will fit into it. And I'll do you one better. I will fit into it, take a picture of myself in it, and I will post the picture to my journal.
I've gotten a little more confidence than then, but I still will only get clothing if it is a present. Most of my clothes are worn out, have holes, or are threadbare. I've let myself go to the mall on occasion, maybe a few times a year, to look for accessories. After all, those don't have a size on them.
So last week, my sister and I went to the mall, and I was planning just to look at accessories like a scarf on clearance or something. Then I saw the cutest dress! As much as I hate to admit that I like clothes, I had been looking for a dress. And they were on clearance! I went to look at them, and the largest size they had was a 20. I tried it on and it was too small. I was really sad, but I got it anyway.
It's hanging on the outside of my closet where I can see it everyday. One day I will fit into it. And I'll do you one better. I will fit into it, take a picture of myself in it, and I will post the picture to my journal.