Fuck what you know!
Like the title? Haha, that's the best part of Midtown's "So Long As We Keep Our Bodies Numb, We're Safe"....but of course, you all knew that anyway.
I felt that it was time for an update. So what have I been up to? Everything. This weekend: Pam, Jim, and Jess came down to my house. We ate with my family at Pete and Elda's and then went to Red Bank. Ron met up with us and we all went to Improv Jam. Fun stuff. Sunday we went to Frightfest, because Saturday was too crowded. In my opinion, Sunday was also too damned crowded, but I still had fun.
I have a Poli Sci midterm tomorrow. I just got done studying.
So I really don't know what else to say. More and more I'm realizing how complete I am. As a person, that is. Has anyone seen that movie with Drew Barrymore and I think Brittany Murphy, where she has the kid at a really young age? And Steve Zahn is in it too? I only saw this one part of the movie, but it's the part that everyone knows, where Brittany Murphy says that sometimes when people love something/someone so much, they have to become a little numb to it, because if they felt it all, they would die. Or something along those lines. My point is that my life is in that exact place right now. I have become numb to all the happiness because it's almost too much to bear. But I feel it in me, this flower that is finally growing and blooming after being hidden from the sun for so very long. If this were all to disappear, I think I'd die. I'm like a heroin junkie, but I'm addicted to happiness. If I were to quit cold turkey, I'd go into shock and withdrawal. All of this helps me remember that every day, every moment, every breath, every friend, everyONE is a gift. I wish I could thank them all.
Tomorrow I'll be you, just pick up the phone
I'm calling from your house, in your room, in your name
Laying in your bed, following your tracks
I'm listening to your voice get caught in my throat
As I say, "This is just a dream on New Year's Day"
We will change back to ourselves in the flame
We are cured, we are cured, we are cured...
I felt that it was time for an update. So what have I been up to? Everything. This weekend: Pam, Jim, and Jess came down to my house. We ate with my family at Pete and Elda's and then went to Red Bank. Ron met up with us and we all went to Improv Jam. Fun stuff. Sunday we went to Frightfest, because Saturday was too crowded. In my opinion, Sunday was also too damned crowded, but I still had fun.
I have a Poli Sci midterm tomorrow. I just got done studying.
So I really don't know what else to say. More and more I'm realizing how complete I am. As a person, that is. Has anyone seen that movie with Drew Barrymore and I think Brittany Murphy, where she has the kid at a really young age? And Steve Zahn is in it too? I only saw this one part of the movie, but it's the part that everyone knows, where Brittany Murphy says that sometimes when people love something/someone so much, they have to become a little numb to it, because if they felt it all, they would die. Or something along those lines. My point is that my life is in that exact place right now. I have become numb to all the happiness because it's almost too much to bear. But I feel it in me, this flower that is finally growing and blooming after being hidden from the sun for so very long. If this were all to disappear, I think I'd die. I'm like a heroin junkie, but I'm addicted to happiness. If I were to quit cold turkey, I'd go into shock and withdrawal. All of this helps me remember that every day, every moment, every breath, every friend, everyONE is a gift. I wish I could thank them all.
Tomorrow I'll be you, just pick up the phone
I'm calling from your house, in your room, in your name
Laying in your bed, following your tracks
I'm listening to your voice get caught in my throat
As I say, "This is just a dream on New Year's Day"
We will change back to ourselves in the flame
We are cured, we are cured, we are cured...