It has been a while...
Wow, last time I updated was when Daniel was in Germany. That was like 6 months ago? haha damn. It's 11:17 and I just got home, I was with Daniel all night. Well ok, there's about what? 5 days til xmas eve? and for some odd reason I'm not excited at all. I got all the gifts I'm giving packed up and ready to go. Actually I just need to get Jaime something, but I'm not quite sure. I hope Sunday night is a good night, unlike the other xmas eves urgh they've sucked. My whole family has diminished slowly and it blows. Just for a slight moment for any holiday I wish my whole family would get together again and celebrate the beauty of being together and sticking like the family we are u know? I mean, it feels like the only ones left within the family are my my cousins, my nephew, my 2 nieces, Tia Vilma, Tio Argedis, and Tio Mario....mom Jaime and I..God and it use to be so many, my 3 other uncles and their wives and kids. Every holiday was a fucking amazing party! all night, from like 7 at night til like 5 in the morning! My cousins and I would get so wasted, and our parents never cared...we would get drunk off our asses! Whiskey, Vodka, Rum, a couple of dozens of beers, smirnoffs, freaking tasty Margaritas! EVERYTHING! thanksgiving, xmas, and new years ever we would celebrate and be happy! ...but now shit sucks. My family has like turned their backs agains eachother or something, my mom and Tia Vilma are always talking to eachother and never really fight, I guess cuz they're sisters but who knows.I hope things do get better some way or the other tho.
Now my personal life? what can I say? I don't want to get in so much detail for what has gone on in my life lately. Daniel and I are finally doing good, I mean seriously we are. After the little incident that happened that night before sunset 06 when he hungout with the russian and they "held hands" that was a big deal to me, even though he said he didn't think about it because he was so high that night or whatever. The point to me is that I sure didn't appreciate it at all, on the contrary I wanted to kick her ass soooooooo bad, but then again I can't blame her for everything he had a big role on all of that shit. After I found out about that night before the ROTC picnic and what they did, I felt so dirty urgh is not even funny...I was so disgusted and that wasn't her fault, I really can't blame her for that one. Tonigh while we were at Gery's house, we were both just laying on the couche watching the sopa opera and he had his arms around me, he started crying and asked me if I loved him still. I do man I really do love this guy, I've giving him a huge part of my life and I really can't deny that I've been hurt by him so much...not because I'm blind and I don't want to see reality and give myself a break .....I dk but I told him that I do and I always will. I asked him if he was truly honest about regreting the things he did in the past, and really wanted to be with me... and he said yes, and that right there gave so much joy to my life. But I really don't want to talk about that right now.
Pert got lost tonight. After his parents busted him on the whole weed smoking things have been out of hand with them. Pipi and him got into a stupid argument tonight I guess and he told her to fuck off. His dad got home and bitched him out and right then Pertita ran off and left for a good while. When I got there we went lookign for her everywhere near by. Briarwood, the churches, and his hood, close to Kyle's. He was so upset and I love pert so much too so we were looking for her but then gave up and just went to Gery's. Funny thing is that right when we were turning on hsi street he yells "its Pert! its Pert!!" and i break and put my high beams on and pert comes running! daniel gets out and hugs her! awww it was a moment to remember =) then since daniel left the dorr open she jumps in the car!! hahaha then i was like get on the back baby we'll drive ove to the house! lol so pert was sitting next to me for a minute lol it was awesome. I'm so glad we found her, shes such a great dog =)
Now my personal life? what can I say? I don't want to get in so much detail for what has gone on in my life lately. Daniel and I are finally doing good, I mean seriously we are. After the little incident that happened that night before sunset 06 when he hungout with the russian and they "held hands" that was a big deal to me, even though he said he didn't think about it because he was so high that night or whatever. The point to me is that I sure didn't appreciate it at all, on the contrary I wanted to kick her ass soooooooo bad, but then again I can't blame her for everything he had a big role on all of that shit. After I found out about that night before the ROTC picnic and what they did, I felt so dirty urgh is not even funny...I was so disgusted and that wasn't her fault, I really can't blame her for that one. Tonigh while we were at Gery's house, we were both just laying on the couche watching the sopa opera and he had his arms around me, he started crying and asked me if I loved him still. I do man I really do love this guy, I've giving him a huge part of my life and I really can't deny that I've been hurt by him so much...not because I'm blind and I don't want to see reality and give myself a break .....I dk but I told him that I do and I always will. I asked him if he was truly honest about regreting the things he did in the past, and really wanted to be with me... and he said yes, and that right there gave so much joy to my life. But I really don't want to talk about that right now.
Pert got lost tonight. After his parents busted him on the whole weed smoking things have been out of hand with them. Pipi and him got into a stupid argument tonight I guess and he told her to fuck off. His dad got home and bitched him out and right then Pertita ran off and left for a good while. When I got there we went lookign for her everywhere near by. Briarwood, the churches, and his hood, close to Kyle's. He was so upset and I love pert so much too so we were looking for her but then gave up and just went to Gery's. Funny thing is that right when we were turning on hsi street he yells "its Pert! its Pert!!" and i break and put my high beams on and pert comes running! daniel gets out and hugs her! awww it was a moment to remember =) then since daniel left the dorr open she jumps in the car!! hahaha then i was like get on the back baby we'll drive ove to the house! lol so pert was sitting next to me for a minute lol it was awesome. I'm so glad we found her, shes such a great dog =)