[FIC] Our different pasts, Our intertwined present Chap 35
Rating: NC-16 (vulgar language)
Genre: Drama
Pairing: Yoosu
Story: Park Yoochun has a dark past he stashed away. Kim Junsu has a painful love he wants to forget. They hate each other's guts when they first meet yet Fate has it that they stay in each other's present. But what holds for their future?
Disclaimers: I don't own the characters.
Warning: Vulgar language
Author's notes: Aish... work was really bad for me... sorry I took so long!!! This is probably my most uneventful chapter... opps... but probably another one or two chapters to go... Love ya guys and your comments!!! ^_^
[chapter 1] [chapter 2] [chapter 3+4] [chapter 5] [chapter 6] [chapter 7+8] [chapter 9] [chapter 10] [chapter 11] [chapter 12] [chapter 13] [chapter 14] [chapter 15] [chapter 16+17] [chapter 18] [chapter 19] [chapter 20] [chapter 21] [chapter 22] [chapter 23] [chapter 24] [chapter 25] [chapter 26] [chapter 27] [chapter 28] [chapter 29] [chapter 30] [chapter 31] [chapter 32] [chapter 33] [chapter 34]
Chapter 35
“Changmin!”
“Yoochun hyung! Jaejoong hyung!”
Yoochun ran quickly to reach the younger man. Jaejoong was following closely behind him. The older man was worried about his dongsaeng and insisted on coming with him. Hyesung met up with Minwoo and was working with the police on tracking where Kim Kang-In could be.
“Where is your hyung? Where is Junsu?”
“I… I don’t know Yoochun hyung… after you called me I tried to look for him and call him… but I could not find him anywhere…”
Yoochun was panting from the running, as well as from the anxiety he was feeling. Kim Kang-In would surely come for Junsu… That bastard surely will. They had to find Junsu before he did.
“Let’s go look around some more… He must still be in the hospital!”
Yoochun, Changmin and Jaejoong were about to move off when Eunhyuk appeared around the corner.
“Eunhyuk hyung… did you see Junsu hyung?”
The small man looked up and he gave Yoochun a dirty look once their gaze met.
“I was speaking to him a while ago… what’s the matter?”
“Where is he now? Tell me! Please tell me!”
Yoochun grabbed Eunhyuk at his sides and this did not make the latter too happy about it.
“Get off me, you fool! I don’t know where Junsu is!”
“You have to know! You just said you were with him!”
“Well, we went our separate ways after that! Just let me go!”
Eunhyuk finally shook Yoochun’s hold on him off. But Yoochun only got more frustrated and without thinking, he threw a punch into Eunhyuk’s face for the second time that day.
“What the fuck did you do that for!”
“Yoochun! Stop!”
Jaejoong shouted as he pulled Yoochun back from hitting Eunhyuk further.
“Junsu’s life is in danger! Kim Kang-In has escaped and is probably hunting Junsu down now as we speak! Why didn’t you stay with him! You were supposed to watch him!”
Eunhyuk’s face dropped as he processed what Yoochun said. But it was also the look in Yoochun’s eyes that sent a chill down the other man’s spine.
Yoochun struggled out of Jaejoong’s hold and immediately made for Eunhyuk’s collars.
“Where and when did you last see Junsu? Think and tell us NOW!”
Eunhyuk was breathing heavily as he stuttered.
“I… We… we were talking at the… um… at the hospital’s main entrance… but… Junsu wanted to be alone… so he took off… I saw him… walk out of the hospital… but I could not see which direction he went…”
Yoochun flung off his hold on Eunhyuk’s collars and sprinted in the direction of the hospital’s main entrance. Jaejoong ran quickly after him and Changmin followed close behind.
Eunhyuk could only stand and stare at the disappearing back of the three men, especially that of Park Yoochun’s.
“I now know why you love him more than me Junsu… I finally understand…”
***
Yoochun’s throat and body was burning from all the running but he could not stop until he was sure Junsu was safe and sound. He should not have left Junsu’s side. He should have stayed. He hated himself very much at that moment. He hated himself for coming up with that stupid plan. He hated himself for getting Yunho hurt.
But most of all, he hated himself for hurting Junsu and making the other man think that he did not love him. He wished he could just kill himself.
Yoochun ran like a mad man around the nearby areas of the hospital. He, Changmin and Jaejoong decided to split up and search. Changmin and Jaejoong were searching the hospital building.
It’s been almost half an hour and they still have no traces of the man. Junsu would not have gone far. Why couldn’t they find him?
Unless…
RING!
“Yul bo se yo?”
Yoochun answered frantically, without even checking who the caller was.
“Park Yoochun…”
Yoochun could feel all colour drain from his own face.
“Kim Junsu is with me now…”
“Yah, Kim Kang-In! Don’t you dare hurt Junsu! Or else…”
“Hahaha… If you wanna save your little lover… come meet me… alone… I will put a bullet through Kim Junsu’s head if you bring company. I will not hesitate, Park Yoochun… you know what I am capable of… Meet me at the warehouse.”
Click.
“Ki…”
Yoochun did not manage to say another word before Kim Kang-In hung up on him. Without waiting another second, the man made his way to the car.
“I’m coming, Junsu… I’m coming…”
***
“Let me go now, Kim Kang-In! What did you call Park Yoochun for?! LET ME GO!”
Kim Kang-In turned in the direction of the shouting man as he flipped his phone shut.
“What? Worried about your lover? Don’t worry… you will see him very soon… and I will make him pay… for thwarting my plans… He thinks he can destroy me like that… well… he is wrong… and I will make him pay… I will make you BOTH pay…”
Kim Junsu stared at Kim Kang-In with a murderous look in his eyes. He wanted some fresh air and so he went out of the hospital building, only to be ambushed by the nutcase and brought to the abandoned warehouse again. Junsu hated the sense of déjà vu. Both his arms and legs are tied up and he was left sitting on the ground.
“I will not let you off for what you did to Yunho hyung… I will get my hands on you eventually!”
Kim Kang-In only responded with a sickening laugh that resounded through the empty place.
“Kim Junsu… you really amaze me… you are seated there, all tied up… what makes you think what you say would have any effect on me… you just making this even better for me…”
“If you wanna kill me, Kim Kang-In, just do it then! I’ve had enough of you!”
Kim Kang-In turned serious so suddenly that Junsu flinched inwardly.
“I will kill you, Kim Junsu… you have no idea… how much I wish to do that now… but I’ve got an even better idea… I shall let you watch while I torture your little lover… before letting you die… right before Park Yoochun’s eyes…”
Junsu saw the hate in Kang-In’s eyes and could not understand where it all came from.
“What have I ever done to you, huh? Or my family for this matter, that you hate us so much?”
“Hahaha… I forgot… you are the lucky and fortunate one… you grew up without having to worry about someone beating you up in the middle of your sleep, such that you barely even slept… you grew up without having to worry about having no food to eat because you do not have to bother about losing a fight for the limited food… YOU GREW UP without knowing how it felt like to sleep out on the roads in winter because you have a roof over your head… I hate you… Kim Junsu…. Because you did not go through what I had to go through…”
“You’re crazy! Most people did not go through what you went through! How many people could you go after?”
“You’re different from them… Kim Junsu… because the same blood runs in our body… and yet you got to lead a life of luxury while I had to fend for myself… this is exactly why I want you, Kim Choi Won and the rest of the Kim family… penniless… and dead…”
“Wha…? What did you just say?”
“Yes… you heard me right… dongsaeng… we’re brothers… but why must I be the one to lead the hard life… while you get to enjoy all the good things? So I want to take back what is mine… everything… everything that was yours should have been mine too! Since that is not possible now… I will take away the one thing that is important to them… YOU… I want them to know how it feels to lose EVERYTHING!”
Junsu could only stare at Kang-In’s face. Could it be that they were actually brothers? How was that possible? Everything was too over-whelming for the tied-up man that he did not know what to think.
“Surprised? Well, go ask Kim Choi Won and your precious mother why they abandoned me! Why did they choose you over me! Why I had to fend for myself while you are cared for by so many people!”
“If… if we are family… how could you bear to hurt us? How could you be out to destroy us?”
“Why should I care or bother about the fact that we are family when Kim Choi Won and YOUR precious mother did not bother when they abandoned me! I swore, the day I found out, that I would get back all that I deserved… all that the Kim family owes me!”
Junsu felt weak as he stared at the man standing before him. He could not believe they were related by blood. He could not accept the fact that his parents abandoned their own flesh and blood.
“I had everything planned out… I even managed to get Jung Yunho to help me… I almost got all I wanted… But Park Yoochun had to thwart my plans… I really underestimated him… I thought he could be overlooked… But I was wrong… But it’s okay… because I’m going to let him have a taste of losing what is precious to him... one… more… time…”
Kim Kang-In laughed shamelessly.
Junsu just sat where he was, staring at nothing in particular. How did things come to this end? How did so many things happen in just a few months? He was finally able to let go of his past and was determined to make things work with Yoochun, only to suffer worse consequences. Yoochun had caused his brother to be blinded and him to lose his family business. And after all that, he had to find out that Yoochun never loved him. Now, his own blood brother just wanted to kill him and his family.
Junsu had no more strength left in him. He did not want to fight back anymore. It would please Kang-In if he only knew that Junsu’s world had already crumbled. It did not really make a difference to the young man whether he lived or died. Since this is something his parents owed Kim Kang-In, he would repay the debt for them.
“You’re wrong about one thing, brother…”
Kang-In stopped laughing and frowned at the calmness of Junsu’s voice.
“Park Yoochun is not going to come… if you wanna kill me… just do it now…”
The other man just smirked.
“Don’t try and be a hero now, Kim Junsu. I will kill you eventually… but since I can make this more painful for you… trust me when I say I will make use of this opportunity fully… You and Park Yoochun make such a disgusting couple that I feel like bashing you two up even if I didn’t know you…”
Junsu merely let out a mocking laugh.
“It would probably please you to know that Park Yoochun was with me purely to get revenge at you… He said it himself… right after you were arrested… he had no reason to lie to me… I have already been hit where it hurts the most… and I cannot feel anymore… it does not make a difference now… whether you kill me or not… But if you think it would help to alleviate your hate and make you feel better… then do it.”
Kang-In looked confused and did not know what to believe. He just starred on at Kim Junsu, hoping that an answer would come to him.
“But I hope you could promise me… that you would not hurt anyone else… Mother is already in a bad state… Yunho hyung has already been punished and Changmin never did anything to you… Please let everything end with my death.”
Kim Kang-In tightened his hold on the gun.
“It’s not that simple, Kim Junsu. Life for me was never that simple… life for me was never easy… nothing I did was ever enough to give me a proper life. I did not have enough to eat… to wear… I did not ask for a lot… I just wanted enough for me to lead a decent life… but I never had enough… while YOU… you had more of everything… I’m sure you had more than enough to eat… more than enough to wear… and perhaps even more than enough space to sleep! You would never… NEVER be able to understand what I went through… so don’t act all noble now and think things would just end with your death… I know what you’re trying to do… you’re trying to save Park Yoochun’s ass… Even if he does not appear… I will still kill him, Kim Junsu… then you would know how it feels like to have NOTHING!”
Kim Kang-In clenched his teeth tightly as he finished. He did not care if Kim Junsu is deliberately seeking death, or just trying to save his lover. He had come too far to stop. He had done too much damage to give up. He had no choice but to continue with his plan. It was the only thing that made sense to him since he found out his parentage. The Kim family owed him everything they had. He had no more conscience left to consider that he was related to Kim Junsu by blood. He had given up too much to give in to his conscience now. He hardened his heart and pointed his gun at Kim Junsu’s head.
Junsu’s heart froze at the look in Kang-In’s eyes. The former realised Kang-In had too much hatred in him to see any more sense. The younger man knew Kang-In would not stop until his whole family was dead.
“Hyung…”
“Don’t call me THAT!”
Kim Kang-In shouted as he pushed the nozzle of the gun against Junsu’s forehead.
Junsu swallowed. He was not afraid to die. He was not lying to Kang-In when he said it would not make a difference if he was dead or alive. But he did not want to die for nothing. He must make sure Kang-In did not hurt his family members.
“Go back to the Kim family after my death. Once I am dead, Father and Mother would only have you as their son. They will take you back into the family. I’m sure they will.”
“SHUT THE FUCK UP before I blow your brains out!”
“You don’t have to kill them. Please, hyung… I beg of you!”
Kang-In was clenching his teeth and squeezing the weapon in his hand. Junsu knew he was probably courting his own death by aggravating Kang-In but it was the only thing that was on his mind with the gun pointed in his face.
“I mean it, Kim Junsu! You’d better shut your trap if you still wanna live!”
“You can kill me… take my life…. Do whatever you want… but just promise me you would not hurt my family or Yoochun!”
“You got that right… it’s YOUR family… not MINE… they owe me too much… even though I failed to get back what I deserve… I’m going to hit them where it hurts the most… you… their ONLY son… and Park Yoochun’s precious lover…”
Junsu could already feel his heart beating wildly against his chest. He could feel his end coming. Somehow, he could feel that Kang-In was going to pull the trigger any time. But he had not gotten the assurance he needed. He was running out of time.
“NO! They are your family too! They are your parents, your brothers! You’ve hurt them enough, don’t hurt them anymore!”
“What about the hurt they inflicted on me? Did they think about the fact that I was related to them before they abandoned me? HUH?!”
“They must have a good reason… they must have… and you would never know the reason if you kill them!”
“Ha… I don’t need any reason anymore… No reason can justify the kind of life I have had to lead because of them… No reason… Forget it, Kim Junsu… Nothing you say will change your fate… or theirs… not anymore… it’s all too late…”
Kang-In indicated the end of the conversation by cocking the gun and letting the sound echoed through the empty warehouse.
Junsu was panting from the shouting but mostly from the anxiety he was feeling inside of him. He let out short breaths as his perspiration dripped off the sides of his face. He found himself looking straight into the nozzle of the gun again. The sight was getting too familiar for his liking.
Junsu closed his eyes slowly as he gave up any more struggle. He was too tired and too hurt to fight on anymore. He did not want to anymore. He had no more reason to.
As he shut his eyes completely, Yoochun’s face appeared in front of him. A single tear rolled down his cheek.
BANG!