[FIC] Our different pasts, Our intertwined present Chap 32
Rating: NC-16 (vulgar language)
Genre: Drama
Pairing: Yoosu
Story: Park Yoochun has a dark past he stashed away. Kim Junsu has a painful love he wants to forget. They hate each other's guts when they first meet yet Fate has it that they stay in each other's present. But what holds for their future?
Disclaimers: I don't own the characters.
Warning: Vulgar language
Author's notes: I thought I was missing for a long time... glad it was only a month... haha... but still... SORRY TO KEEP YOU GUYS WAITING!! I was wondering how to continue the story and I finally found a way out! I think i made this too drama for my own good... haha... but really love you guys for loving this!!!! I hope to finish this fic by this year! Here we go!
[chapter 1] [chapter 2] [chapter 3+4] [chapter 5] [chapter 6] [chapter 7+8] [chapter 9] [chapter 10] [chapter 11] [chapter 12] [chapter 13] [chapter 14] [chapter 15] [chapter 16+17] [chapter 18] [chapter 19] [chapter 20] [chapter 21] [chapter 22] [chapter 23] [chapter 24] [chapter 25] [chapter 26] [chapter 27] [chapter 28] [chapter 29] [chapter 30] [chapter 31]
Chapter 32
“Turn in here.”
Yoochun did as he was told. He had never been to Junsu’s place before and felt a little jittery. The thought of entering Junsu’s room and seeing his bed was already causing Yoochun some uncalled-for urges. He mentally told himself to control it. His thoughts were cut off when he caught sight of a figure standing in the driveway.
“There’s someone standing at your front gate. Do you recognise him?”
Yoochun commented as he saw the back view of a man standing in front of the gate. He wondered if the person was a friend or foe. Junsu leaned forward slightly to get a better look at the person. When he realised who it could be, his hands turned cold and he could feel a twist in his stomach.
Yoochun stopped the car and killed the engine.
“Do you know him, Su? Shall I go check it out?”
Yoochun repeated his question, frowning a little as Junsu seemed a bit out of sorts.
Junsu’s gaze seemed locked on the stranger and it took him a long while before he finally responded to Yoochun’s question.
“It’s alright, Chun… I know who he is…”
“Okay… your friend?”
“Well…”
By then, the stranger had caught sight of the car and the two men in it. He was already making his way over to them.
Both men then made their way out of the car. The stranger stopped mid step when he saw Yoochun and gave what Yoochun thought was a look of confusion and a little despair before he looked at Junsu. He then made his way over to the shorter man.
“Hi Junsu… Long time no see. Can we talk please?”
Junsu looked at a loss for words. Yoochun had never seen the other man so distracted before. Junsu could be seen taking in huge breaths of air. Yoochun shut the car door and began to make his way over to Junsu.
“Hey, you alright?”
Yoochun asked gently as he placed his hand on Junsu’s back. A look of discomfort appeared on the stranger’s face.
Yoochun’s voice seemed to have startled Junsu out of his trance. The shorter man quickly composed himself and turned to face the stranger. Yoochun noticed that Junsu looked a little pale.
“What are you doing here?”
“Junsu, give me a chance to explain things to you. I know you are very upset with me but I really need you to hear me out. Please? Just listen to what I have to say first before you make any conclusions or assumptions… please? I beg of you.”
Junsu still looked dazed and Yoochun was beginning to worry when he felt a vibration in his pants. He took out his mobile and saw it was a message from Yunho. It seems their plan was being carried out earlier than he expected. Too early. Yoochun did not expect to lose Junsu so soon.
“Let’s talk inside… Eunhyuk.”
Junsu spoke up suddenly. His mind was a whirl. Everything happening before his eyes now was once his greatest wish - to see Eunhyuk again and to know that he had an explanation for leaving without a word.
But all these were happening at the wrong time. Junsu now had Yoochun. He was all ready to let go of the past and be with Yoochun. Yet, he could not just push Eunhyuk away. He needed to know what happened between them so many years ago. He needed a closure. Although he did not know how he would react to what the other man has to say, Junsu just needed to know the truth. When he saw Yoochun staring at his mobile, he guessed he could have some time alone with Eunhyuk to sort things out.
“Go on in, Eunhyuk. I’ll be with you shortly.”
The stranger threw a weird look in Yoochun’s direction before he turned to go into Junsu’s house. Yoochun did not like the look the stranger gave him and wondered exactly who he was. He could tell Junsu was not happy at his appearance. The other man now wore a heavy expression.
“Su… who is he?”
Junsu looked intently into Yoochun’s face for a while before he opened his mouth to speak.
“You trust me, right, Yoochun?”
Yoochun’s head jerked back at the sudden question. But he did not hesitate to answer.
“Of course I do.”
“Then, I have to ask you not to ask me anything right now. I saw you checking your mobile and I believe there is something you need to attend to. Please give me some time to sort this out and I promise I will explain everything to you afterwards.”
Yoochun lightly pulled Junsu in for an embrace. It was Yoochun’s way of saying yes and Junsu was grateful for that. He was beginning to love how casual and easy Yoochun showed him affection and at that moment, Junsu wanted nothing but that.
Yoochun took in Junsu’s scent and told himself to remember the warmth that he was feeling. He bit his lip to keep his tears back as he reluctantly separated himself from the shorter man. He knew it was going to take more than an apology to feel Junsu in his arms again.
“I believe you, Su. You don’t even have to explain to me if you don’t want to.”
“Thanks, Yoochun. I appreciate it.”
Yoochun gave a slight smile at that.
“I’ll meet you back at the hospital then.”
“Yup. See ya.”
With that, Yoochun got back into the car again and drove off, leaving Junsu still standing at his gate. Junsu closed his eyes and took deep breaths. It was not going to be easy to face the person inside his house now. Junsu did not know how he could prepare himself so he decided to get it over and done with.
***
“Yunho hyung…”
“Hey…”
Yoochun took a seat from across the other man in the small café.
“So… how did it go?”
“It’s settled. Here are the documents you need.”
Yoochun reached over to take the brown package. He took out the contents and looked through them carefully. This was their bet to take Kang-In down. Yoochun had to be sure everything was in place. But he did not realise he had started to zone out.
“Yoochun?”
“Huh?”
“Are the documents alright? Are they what you need?”
Yoochun blinked a few times before he turned his attention back to the papers he was holding in his hands.
“Yeah… this is just what we need.”
“Are you okay? You look a little out of sorts.”
“I’m fine… it’s just… I did not expect things to happen so quickly… you know…”
Yunho knew what the younger man meant but decided to ignore it.
“I will meet with Kim Kang-In once he is released. Are you sure this is going to work?”
“This is the only way to catch him unawares… Thanks for helping me, Yunho hyung.”
“I don’t have much of a choice, do I? But aren’t we taking a big risk here? We could lose the entire Kim Enterprises.”
Yoochun kept silent.
“You do know what you are doing right? It really does not matter to me if the whole Kim Enterprises is lost. That is exactly what I want… but I know Junsu would mind it, very much… He put a lot of effort into the company and much as he does not say it, he really cares about his father and what the old man thought of him. If Kim Choi Won finds out Junsu lost the company… I don’t know how Junsu would take it.”
Yoochun kept his head down as he sighed heavily.
“I’m sure you would agree with me that this is probably the only way to keep Junsu, Mrs Kim and Changmin safe, even if it means losing the whole enterprise.”
“You do know Junsu might hate you for this right?”
Yunho asked casually. He did not trust Yoochun so much that he would consider him a friend. But the older man had to admit he could tell Yoochun’s feelings for Junsu were true. His care and concern was genuine. What they were planning would most definitely piss Junsu off. Yunho would not have agreed to the plan if it weren’t the only way to ensure the safety and well being of his family members. But he also knew that they were playing the bad guys. He wondered if Yoochun considered how Junsu would treat him after he found out about everything.
Yoochun lifted his head to just stare out the window. He had given the plan a lot of thought the moment he was sure Yunho was the mole. He had explored all other alternatives but he knew this was the only way. It was best to get rid of Kang-In first. He would have to bother about his own problems after that.
“Anyway, where is Junsu?”
Yunho asked, not waiting for Yoochun’s answer to his earlier question because it was a rhetorical one anyway. Yunho knew the younger man did not have an answer.
“He’s at home… with a friend.”
Yoochun answered quickly, glad for the change in subject.
“Friend? What friend?”
“I’m not sure. In fact, Junsu did not seem happy to see him, but he told me it was fine. He did not tell me much. So I did not ask. The friend was not too pleased to see me either. Seems like there was a lot going on for the both of them.”
Yunho pursed his lips in thought. He was sure he knew all Junsu’s friends and due to his brother’s temper, he did not have a lot. Considering all that was going on, Yunho could not comprehend why Junsu was willing to entertain a friend.
“You did not ask Junsu who he was?”
“I did… but it seemed difficult for him to explain. He said he would explain everything to me afterwards.”
“This is really puzzling… do you know the name of his friend?”
Yoochun stirred his coffee absent-mindedly as he gave Yunho’s question some thought.
“I think it was Eunhyuk if I heard it correctly.”
“EUNHYUK?”
Yoochun’s hand jerked slightly from the sudden exclaim from the man opposite him that he spilled some coffee on the table.
“What’s wrong, Yunho hyung?”
Yunho looked straight at Yoochun’s face and the latter did like the look at all.
“He was the one who broke Junsu’s heart four years ago.”
***
The silence in the house was almost deafening for Junsu. Eunhyuk was seated across from him in the living room and both men had not spoken a word since they entered the house.
“So… how have you been?”
Eunhyuk finally decided to break the silence.
“What do you expect me to say, Hyuk?”
Eunhyuk licked his lips nervously as he held his hands together so tightly that his knuckles turned white.
Junsu inhaled deeply.
“Look, I have no patience for this. I only agreed to this because you said you had an explanation. I believe we could skip all the formalities and get this over with.”
“Why are you speaking like you want nothing to do with me after this?”
Junsu exhaled heavily this time and pursed his lips together, turning away from Eunhyuk’s gaze.
“It’s because of the guy earlier, isn’t it?”
Eunhyuk said with an edge to his voice.
There was fire in Junsu’s eyes when his head jerked up.
“Don’t use that tone on me like I was the one who let you down! I hate to admit it but my life was ruined by you. I spent four years trying to get over what you did to me. You had four years to come back, appear like you did today to tell me you did not mean for any of whatever happened to happen. Why must you choose to come back now?! Now, when I have decided to move on?! You have no right to question me!“
Junsu shouted, unable to contain his emotions anymore. He did not know if he was angry, or confused or just lost. He really had no idea what he was feeling, except he knew how heavy his heart was and how tight his chest felt. He also found himself wishing he had not asked Yoochun to leave.
“Su…”
“Don’t call me that! Don’t ever call me that again! You know what… this is a stupid idea… I should not have agreed to listen to you… I shouldn’t have!”
Junsu could feel himself losing his sanity. He realised he really did not know how to handle the situation. He should not have thought he could handle it. He should not have asked Yoochun to leave.
“Alright… just calm down, S… Junsu… Like I said, I would explain things to you. And I’ll just do it.”
Junsu willed himself to calm down and breathe properly as he made himself more comfortable on the couch.
Seeing that Junsu was ready to listen, Eunhyuk braced himself to speak.
“I… I was working under orders when I did all those things… when I disappeared with the money and all… I did not mean to hurt you… but I know I did… Mi-an hae…”
“So… you had it all planned the moment you joined the company?”
Junsu asked, a look of betrayal on his face.
Eunhyuk could not meet Junsu’s gaze.
“Yes… it was all planned… except for… us…”
“What do you mean by that?”
Eunhyuk let out a loud sigh and appeared what seemed to Junsu like he was just going to let everything out.
“I mean, Kim Junsu… that falling in love with you was NOT part of my orders… NOT part of my plans… and I had NEVER intended to hurt you… I really love you…“
Junsu could feel his heart getting caught in his throat. If this had happened before Yoochun appeared, Junsu would probably be melting inside now, wanting to believe all that the man before him was saying. But Junsu now found it hard to believe.
“You did hurt me… and I don’t understand… if you really loved me like you said you did… why did you still betray me? Why did you still make use of my trust? How could I believe what you are saying now?”
“I know it is difficult for you to believe… but I really had no choice… not then anyway…”
“What do you mean no choice? You always have a choice… and you chose to hurt me… and to give up our relationship… why do you even bother coming back to explain yourself? To make yourself feel less guilty?”
Eunhyuk brought his fist to his mouth and he could be seen breathing hard. Junsu put his hand to his head as he could already feel a headache coming. He did not know where this conversation was going.
“I did not have a choice… Junsu... because they were threatening to kill you if I did not do as they say… If I had to choose between you hating me and you being killed…. I would rather choose the former… So yeah… I had a choice… I chose you…”
Junsu could feel his eyes stinging as he raised his head to look at Eunhyuk in the face for the first time in the whole evening. He could feel his heart beating faster at the new revelation. He felt sick in the stomach.
“Wh… what?”
Was all Junsu could manage.
“They threatened to kill you, Su… if I did not carry out the plan. I was ready to go against them so that I could be with you… I wanted to come clean with everything. But they didn’t let me… I was to go ahead with the plan or they will kill you…. And I know they will… they are capable of anything… So… I chose to just go along with them…”
Junsu could hardly breathe as a single tear rolled down his cheek.
“Why didn’t you just tell me? Why couldn’t you have told me afterwards?”
“They guessed I would try something like that, so they warned me again and again that if I should as much as pass you by on the streets, they would take you out. I had to stay away from you. And I did… so for the past four years, I just stayed away. I couldn’t risk getting you killed. I’m sorry I hurt you… I really am. But what we had was real, Su…”
Junsu was sobbing by the time the other man had finished.
“I miss you…”
Eunhyuk made a move to get closer but Junsu quickly stood up.
“No, Eunhyuk… not now… I cannot… cannot do this now… I need time to sort things out… I’m not thinking straight…”
Eunhyuk backed off slowly.
“I’m sorry Su… for barging into your life like this… I would have stayed away forever… even though it is tearing my heart apart… but I had to come and see you… warn you would be more like it because they are at it again.”
Junsu sniffed once as he furrowed his brows.
“Who’s they? The people you were working for?”
Eunhyuk nodded wordlessly.
“Who are they?”
“The Red Phoenix. The man I was working for was Kim Kang-In… and I know who is working for him in Kim Enterprises.”