[FIC] Our different pasts, Our intertwined present Chap 31
Rating: NC-16 (vulgar language)
Genre: Drama
Pairing: Yoosu
Story: Park Yoochun has a dark past he stashed away. Kim Junsu has a painful love he wants to forget. They hate each other's guts when they first meet yet Fate has it that they stay in each other's present. But what holds for their future?
Disclaimers: I don't own the characters.
Warning: Vulgar language
Author's notes: Sorry if I made you guys wait! I am not completely satisfied with this chapter but I figured I would not do much change to it anyway... so I decided to post... hee... Thanks for all your lovely comments!!! Here we go!
[chapter 1] [chapter 2] [chapter 3+4] [chapter 5] [chapter 6] [chapter 7+8] [chapter 9] [chapter 10] [chapter 11] [chapter 12] [chapter 13] [chapter 14] [chapter 15] [chapter 16+17] [chapter 18] [chapter 19] [chapter 20] [chapter 21] [chapter 22] [chapter 23] [chapter 24] [chapter 25] [chapter 26] [chapter 27] [chapter 28] [chapter 29] [chapter 30]
Chapter 31
Silence ensued for a long time since Yoochun uttered that last sentence. The atmosphere around the two men could have brought the temperature down by a few degrees.
“I can’t believe you are really the one…”
Yoochun finally spoke again, not waiting for Yunho’s answer.
Yunho stroked his jaw in a nervous manner before he went back to fumbling with his hands.
“How did you know…? Because of what I said?”
Yunho spoke in a small voice, tired out from putting on the mask he had since he started to work in cahoots with Kim Kang-In.
“Partly… I already guessed as much when I agreed to meet you. What you said about Red Phoenix merely confirmed my suspicions. Kang-In needed someone powerful enough in the organization to help him and besides Junsu, you are next in line. I know you never thought much about Junsu’s father. When you asked Junsu yesterday if he was shot, I was almost sure it was you. No one mentioned anything about guns, unless of course you heard it over the phone when Kang-In fired his shot. You were the one who called Kang-In, right?”
Yunho’s breathing was getting heavier and the heaving of his chest obvious to Yoochun’s eyes. The older man seems to be thinking of what to say.
“You are smart, Park Yoochun… Yes… I am the one working with Kim Kang-In… and I was the one who called him… but I was trying to stop him! All these… hurting Changmin, hurting Auntie… hurting Junsu… is not what I signed up for.”
“Don’t be stupid, hyung… You should have known what Kim Kang-In is like.”
“I DIDN’T! I did not know he was a nutcase! Everything was simple at first… but then YOU came along and things started to get out of hand!”
“No… it wasn’t me…”
“YES IT WAS!”
Yunho’s voice started to get louder and angrier.
“It was all your fault, Park Yoochun! Kang-In only started hurting people when you told Junsu what you found out. Everything was supposed to be kept under wraps… and done over with quietly… but YOU had to come and blow matters up!”
“Do you really think Kim Kang-In would have let you all off once this is over?”
Yoochun asked irritably, feeling a lump in his throat at what Yunho was saying. Yoochun did not know if there was any truth in it. But he refused to be blamed for Yunho’s stupid decision to work against his own family.
“I could have dealt with it, but now he is just doing all these things because of you!”
“Don’t blame your plight on me, Jung Yunho. You know better than I do that Kang-In had no intentions of leaving you or Junsu or anyone else alive after this! That is the kind of person he is!”
“I don’t know anything anymore alright! Fuck!”
Yunho banged on the old wooden table and caused a slight dent in the wood.
“Fuck Kim Kang-In! Fuck you Park Yoochun! Everything was supposed to be simple! Nobody was supposed to get hurt! And now… everyone I care about is hurt… everyone…”
Yunho ran both his hands through his hair as he let out a grunt. He had not thought his loved ones would get hurt for his decision. He did not expect Kang-In to be a complete maniac when he agreed to work with him. He definitely did not expect Kang-In to hurt his family. Now, things were really getting out of hand.
“Why did you do it, hyung? To get back at Mr Kim? How are you and Kang-In working together on this? What is in for you?”
“Don’t use that tone on me, Park Yoochun! You think I’m doing this for some kind of monetary benefits? I want Kim Joi Won to have a taste of losing everything. He thinks that by providing for my livelihood after my mother’s death, he is doing his duty. If he had taken care of my mother right from the start, she wouldn’t have fallen sick. She would not have died. Since he thinks he could hurt people because of his wealth, I am going to take his wealth away from him!”
Yoochun could see fury and sadness in the other’s eyes and thought he could probably understand why Yunho was so angry at Mr Kim. To Yunho, it was Mr Kim who caused the death of his mother. He must hate him as much as Yoochun hated Kang-In.
“So… you are helping Kang-In buy in shares of Kim Enterprises right? So eventually, Mr Kim will lose his entire enterprise to the two of you.”
Yunho gave a smirk before he spoke.
“You had everything figured out, haven’t you?”
Yoochun just remained quiet. Yunho brushed both his hands over his hair in one frustrated sweep.
“All I wanted… was to teach Kim Joi Won a lesson… I never intended for anyone to get hurt… no one… NO ONE… was supposed to get hurt... and now… I don’t know how to get out of this mess…”
Yunho finished in a defeated tone. His eyes were bloodshot and his face unshaved. He could not sleep the night before, knowing that Junsu was nearly killed because of what he did. He felt even worse when Junsu’s mother went into critical condition. He may hate Kim Joi Won, but he looks upon Junsu, Changmin and Mrs Kim as family. He never wanted any of them to be hurt. He always thought he was making use of Kang-In to achieve his plan. He only realised the day before he was the one being made use of. And now, he was trapped.
Yoochun looked sympathetically at the man opposite him. Having worked with the man before, Yoochun knew Yunho was not a bad person. He could tell that the older man really cared for his brothers and Mrs Kim. He merely made a really bad decision and he was already suffering for it.
“Stop working with him, hyung. He truly is nuts. You will only get into deeper trouble.”
“You think I did not try, Yoochun? I tried… and the result is… Mrs Kim getting hurt. He is not letting me go…. Because he still needs me for his big plan… and if I try to get myself out of it again… I don’t know who he would hurt next time… Junsu is going to hate me for this…”
Yunho choked slightly on his words as he lowered his head between his hands. Yoochun merely frowned, thinking how he could help the other man.
“I won’t tell him, hyung. I won’t tell anyone…”
Yunho looked up in surprise, not expecting to receive support from the one person he did not trust.
“Trust me, hyung… I won’t tell Junsu, or Changmin… not even Jae hyung and Hyesung hyung. I have a plan but I need your trust… and help.”
Yunho let out a heavy sigh. On one hand, he was trapped in a deadly mess with Kim Kang-In. And now, the person he refused to trust seems to be the only person who could help him. He really did not know how to decide.
Seeing Yunho’s hesitation, Yoochun tried again.
“I’m here to help you hyung. I won’t harm you… you are Junsu’s brother. I would not do anything to hurt Su.”
“I’m not so sure about that yet… don’t get me started…”
“C’mon, hyung… what other options do you have?”
Yunho sighed loudly because he knew what Yoochun said was true. He had no choice. If he continued with Kim Kang-In, his whole family would be in danger. Although Yunho did not trust Yoochun completely, having worked with him, Yunho knows the younger man was dependable. He just did not like the idea that he was once part of Red Phoenix and that he knows Kim Kang-In. Yunho already knew what his options were.
“I’ll trust you this once. But not completely. Whatever you want me to do, you’d better leave my family out of it. Don’t you dare hurt any one of them, Park Yoochun. I won’t forgive you. I’ll kill you myself.”
Yoochun gave a relieved smile despite what Yunho said.
“Leave that kind of talking to me, hyung. It’s not suitable for you. Believe me. I want Kim Kang-In dead, as much as you do.”
Yunho caught the dark hatred in Yoochun’s eyes and hoped he made the right decision this time.
Yunho cleared his throat before he spoke again.
“So, what’s your plan?”
***
Junsu’s face cringed slightly before his eyes started to open. He sat up slowly, rubbing the sleep from his eyes when he felt a jacket fall off his shoulders. He recognised it as Yoochun’s immediately and it brought a smile to his face. But then his smile disappeared quickly when he realised the other man was not in the ward.
Just then, the door clicked open softly and Yoochun’s head popped in.
“Hey…”
“Hey… where did you go?”
Yoochun smiled widely as he entered the ward completely and swung a few bags of what seemed like food to Junsu.
“I bought us breakfast! This shall be our first breakfast together! Isn’t that great!”
Junsu laughed out loud at Yoochun’s silly behavior. He knew the other man was trying to cheer him up, knowing that he was worried sick about his mother. But, oddly, Yoochun’s presence did make things much better for Junsu.
“You silly dork…”
Junsu said playfully as he gestured for Yoochun to place the food down on the coffee table in the small ward. As Yoochun walked past Junsu, he casually reached his hands over around Junsu’s waist and gave the shorter man a quick peck on the forehead.
“For some unknown reason… you make me want to do that… I could not even help myself…”
Yoochun said easily as he looked into Junsu’s face.
Junsu was stunned by the sudden act of affection. As he stood frozen from the shock, a warm and fuzzy feeling washed all over the shorter man. It had been so long since he felt so loved and wanted that he thought he was beginning to feel light headed.
“Su? You alright?”
Yoochun asked worriedly as he realised Junsu staring at him without saying anything.
Junsu blinked a few times before he jolted out of his trance.
“Yeah… it’s just… It’s been so long… you know… since someone had shown affection for me like that… I don’t know how to react…”
“Are you kidding me? You reacted quite appropriately last night if I may say so… today’s just a peck!”
“Last night was different… Somehow, it was intense, what with the events of the day and you punching me and all… my emotions were not within my control already… I don’t know… I had sort of calmed down since… and this… just… threw me off my feet… … but…”
“But…?”
Junsu smiled to himself before he looked into Yoochun’s face and smiled even wider.
“I love it… go-mal-wo…”
Yoochun’s face turned slightly serious as he whispered what he wanted to say next.
“Thank you for letting me…”
Both men began to lean in to get closer to one another. As their lips met gently, an unspoken promise of togetherness was sealed.
Yoochun knew then how hurt Junsu was from his previous relationship and how big a step the other man took to finally give his heart and soul away again… to Yoochun. The older man felt fear at that thought as a voice in him warned him of the decision he had made together with Yunho. A decision that could make Junsu leave him.
“I wanna bring you somewhere…”
Yoochun said as they broke apart. He did not want to think about anything anymore. He just wanted some time alone with the other man. Junsu looked ready to say something but the taller man started again.
“I know you would want to stay by your mother’s side… but the doctors already said she would not wake up till tonight. I will call Jae hyung and Hyesung hyung to keep a watch on her… and I promise we would not go far… If anything happens, we’ll be back here in no time. It’s not everyday Kim Kang-In would be behind bars... I just wish to spend some time together. To be somewhere where we can put everything behind us for a while…”
Junsu’s mouth formed a line, as if in thought. He finally gave a slight smile and nodded. Yoochun beamed with delight.
***
“Just a few more steps… and we’ll be there!”
Yoochun called out excitedly, walking a few steps in front of Junsu, who was following behind, clueless about where they were going. He only knew they had been walking through grass as tall as the two of them and all he had been doing was pushing the plants out of his way, earning slight cuts from the sharp leaf blades as he did.
“Here we are!”
Yoochun announced chirpily, as he led Junsu out from the plants and into an open space. Slowly, a beach came into Junsu’s view. Yoochun had brought him to a small shore which overlooks the vast ocean. Junsu realised he was holding his breath in.
“Magnificent, eh? I discovered this place by accident once, while I was being pursued by rival gangs… back when I was still working for Red Phoenix. This place is like a personal heaven for me… I would lie here for hours, just listening to the waves and looking out over the horizon.”
Yoochun was already lying on the sand with his arms behind his head and his eyes closed. Junsu thought he looked really peaceful and it was something he had not seen the man reveal. The shorter man began to make himself comfortable beside his lover.
“I would come here… whenever I feel frustrated… or upset… usually… upset with my father…”
Yoochun trailed off and Junsu could see him frown.
“I would just lie here and listen to the waves… and try not to think of the unhappy things… it helps… which is why I brought you here.”
Yoochun propped himself up on his side to face Junsu. The latter did the same.
“You are probably really frustrated and have much on your mind… I just hope by bringing you here, you could forget about your troubles… at least for a while…”
Junsu smiled.
“Go-mal-wo… Yoochun ah… I do feel much better now… but I know as long as you are around… things just seemed a little brighter…”
Upon hearing that, Yoochun leaned in and captured the lips he was getting so addicted to. Junsu’s eyes fluttered close as he tasted Yoochun in his mouth slowly. Both men savoured the kiss with a gentle hunger. They hoped to just devour the other but yet they enjoy the closeness as they explored each other patiently.
Feeling the burning urge between his legs, Yoochun decided he had better pull apart from Junsu before he did something drastic. Not that he did not want to, but it was just not the time for something like that. As if thinking the same thing, Junsu did not complain when Yoochun pulled himself away.
“Used to these acts of affection yet?”
Yoochun mused, hoping to distract Junsu from realizing the obvious bulge in his pants.
“Loving them so far… ”
Junsu winked, as he lay down on the sand again, with his eyes closed. Yoochun also made himself comfortable so that he would be able to cool down.
“I have been wondering…”
Yoochun’s eyes shot open from the voice. He did not know if he had fallen asleep.
“What about?”
Junsu heaved a huge a sigh before he continued.
“Who exactly in the company is working with Kim Kang-In?”
Yoochun could feel a tightness around his chest. He swallowed.
“When I was held captive by Kim Kang-In, he received a call. From the way he was talking to the person, it seems as if the person on the line knows me… and is concerned about my safety.”
Yoochun remained silent. He hoped Junsu would not begin to put pieces together and suspect Yunho. Knowing how much Junsu treasured his family, he would be heart-broken. Yoochun’s plan would not be carried out either. He did not want to tell Junsu anything yet because he did not even know if his plan would work. But he did not want to lie to the man.
“Who do you think it might be, Yoochun?”
Yoochun’s lips formed a line and he could feel his heart beating faster at the question. He had to think of something to say.
“It could be anyone, Junsu. Any regular employee of the company knows you and would naturally be concerned about your safety. Think about it. If they are working with Kim Kang-In for some sort of benefit, they are just after the money. I don’t think any of them would want to be charged for murder.”
Junsu looked deep in thought. He seemed to think what Yoochun said made sense. Yoochun mentally heaved a sigh of relief.
“I guess that makes sense… that just makes it so much harder to find out who the spy is. If we do not find out who the person is soon, I’m just afraid of what Kim Kang-In might do when he is released.”
Yoochun could understand how heavy Junsu’s heart must be. His mother was in a coma and he must fear for the safety of his family and his company. Yoochun wished he could tell Junsu that the spy was already on their side and that they would definitely find a way to beat Kim Kang-In at his game. But Yoochun was sure if Junsu knew what he asked Yunho to do, he would not agree to it. The taller man also knew he was putting Yunho’s life in danger but it was the only way for them to get Kim Kang-In once and for all. For the sake of the bigger picture, Yoochun could only trust that Junsu would forgive him when he finally found out.
“Junsu…”
The said man turned when he heard the heavy tone in the other man’s voice.
“If I did something wrong… anything at all… would you forgive me?”
Junsu cocked his head slightly at the seriousness of Yoochun’s tone and expression. He licked his lips before he answered.
“By now, you should know I give myself completely in a relationship. When I do that, I trust whom I love totally. I guess that also means I would forgive whatever wrong they did. So… I guess the answer is yes… why are you asking me this question?”
Yoochun’s expression remained solemn.
“I did something very grave…”
“What? What did you do?”
“Well… I… I forgot where I parked the car.”
Yoochun laughed out loud at that.
“What?! You are such a dork, sometimes…”
“You will forgive me, right?”
“You are being stupid… I don’t forgive stupidity!”
“You said you would forgive me, no matter what wrong I do.”
“This is different!”
“No, it isn’t!”
“Get off me!”
“No… not until you forgive me!”
“Stop it! You’re being childish!”
Yoochun finally jumped off Junsu’s back and the smaller man was pounding his spine where Yoochun had jumped on earlier. The taller man could be seen smiling sheepishly.
“I don’t know what you are thinking sometimes…”
“I’m sure you will know me very well in time to come… Heh…”
Junsu laughed at the dorkiness of his lover and loved seeing the smile on the other’s face as the evening sun’s rays shone behind him. Junsu was glad he finally gave in to his feelings.
“We’d better head back… think we were out long enough. Let’s drop by my place for a shower before we return to the hospital.”
“Sure.”
Yoochun smiled at Junsu as he took the other’s hand in his. Junsu thought he was grabbing a little harder than usual but did not mind it as he let Yoochun lead them back to the car. He hoped Yoochun was kidding about forgetting where the vehicle was parked.
As Yoochun pulled Junsu behind him, his heart and mind was a mess. Although what Junsu said gave him some faith that the younger man might forgive him in the end, Yoochun knew he was betraying his lover’s trust in him. He needed to feel Junsu’s hand securely in his before he could convince himself that all he did was for the best. All he wanted was for Junsu to be safe and happy. Even if it means, he might not have Junsu by his side.
A nagging fear was ringing in Yoochun’s head.
“Would you forgive me, Junsu… if I betrayed your trust?”
Genre: Drama
Pairing: Yoosu
Story: Park Yoochun has a dark past he stashed away. Kim Junsu has a painful love he wants to forget. They hate each other's guts when they first meet yet Fate has it that they stay in each other's present. But what holds for their future?
Disclaimers: I don't own the characters.
Warning: Vulgar language
Author's notes: Sorry if I made you guys wait! I am not completely satisfied with this chapter but I figured I would not do much change to it anyway... so I decided to post... hee... Thanks for all your lovely comments!!! Here we go!
[chapter 1] [chapter 2] [chapter 3+4] [chapter 5] [chapter 6] [chapter 7+8] [chapter 9] [chapter 10] [chapter 11] [chapter 12] [chapter 13] [chapter 14] [chapter 15] [chapter 16+17] [chapter 18] [chapter 19] [chapter 20] [chapter 21] [chapter 22] [chapter 23] [chapter 24] [chapter 25] [chapter 26] [chapter 27] [chapter 28] [chapter 29] [chapter 30]
Chapter 31
Silence ensued for a long time since Yoochun uttered that last sentence. The atmosphere around the two men could have brought the temperature down by a few degrees.
“I can’t believe you are really the one…”
Yoochun finally spoke again, not waiting for Yunho’s answer.
Yunho stroked his jaw in a nervous manner before he went back to fumbling with his hands.
“How did you know…? Because of what I said?”
Yunho spoke in a small voice, tired out from putting on the mask he had since he started to work in cahoots with Kim Kang-In.
“Partly… I already guessed as much when I agreed to meet you. What you said about Red Phoenix merely confirmed my suspicions. Kang-In needed someone powerful enough in the organization to help him and besides Junsu, you are next in line. I know you never thought much about Junsu’s father. When you asked Junsu yesterday if he was shot, I was almost sure it was you. No one mentioned anything about guns, unless of course you heard it over the phone when Kang-In fired his shot. You were the one who called Kang-In, right?”
Yunho’s breathing was getting heavier and the heaving of his chest obvious to Yoochun’s eyes. The older man seems to be thinking of what to say.
“You are smart, Park Yoochun… Yes… I am the one working with Kim Kang-In… and I was the one who called him… but I was trying to stop him! All these… hurting Changmin, hurting Auntie… hurting Junsu… is not what I signed up for.”
“Don’t be stupid, hyung… You should have known what Kim Kang-In is like.”
“I DIDN’T! I did not know he was a nutcase! Everything was simple at first… but then YOU came along and things started to get out of hand!”
“No… it wasn’t me…”
“YES IT WAS!”
Yunho’s voice started to get louder and angrier.
“It was all your fault, Park Yoochun! Kang-In only started hurting people when you told Junsu what you found out. Everything was supposed to be kept under wraps… and done over with quietly… but YOU had to come and blow matters up!”
“Do you really think Kim Kang-In would have let you all off once this is over?”
Yoochun asked irritably, feeling a lump in his throat at what Yunho was saying. Yoochun did not know if there was any truth in it. But he refused to be blamed for Yunho’s stupid decision to work against his own family.
“I could have dealt with it, but now he is just doing all these things because of you!”
“Don’t blame your plight on me, Jung Yunho. You know better than I do that Kang-In had no intentions of leaving you or Junsu or anyone else alive after this! That is the kind of person he is!”
“I don’t know anything anymore alright! Fuck!”
Yunho banged on the old wooden table and caused a slight dent in the wood.
“Fuck Kim Kang-In! Fuck you Park Yoochun! Everything was supposed to be simple! Nobody was supposed to get hurt! And now… everyone I care about is hurt… everyone…”
Yunho ran both his hands through his hair as he let out a grunt. He had not thought his loved ones would get hurt for his decision. He did not expect Kang-In to be a complete maniac when he agreed to work with him. He definitely did not expect Kang-In to hurt his family. Now, things were really getting out of hand.
“Why did you do it, hyung? To get back at Mr Kim? How are you and Kang-In working together on this? What is in for you?”
“Don’t use that tone on me, Park Yoochun! You think I’m doing this for some kind of monetary benefits? I want Kim Joi Won to have a taste of losing everything. He thinks that by providing for my livelihood after my mother’s death, he is doing his duty. If he had taken care of my mother right from the start, she wouldn’t have fallen sick. She would not have died. Since he thinks he could hurt people because of his wealth, I am going to take his wealth away from him!”
Yoochun could see fury and sadness in the other’s eyes and thought he could probably understand why Yunho was so angry at Mr Kim. To Yunho, it was Mr Kim who caused the death of his mother. He must hate him as much as Yoochun hated Kang-In.
“So… you are helping Kang-In buy in shares of Kim Enterprises right? So eventually, Mr Kim will lose his entire enterprise to the two of you.”
Yunho gave a smirk before he spoke.
“You had everything figured out, haven’t you?”
Yoochun just remained quiet. Yunho brushed both his hands over his hair in one frustrated sweep.
“All I wanted… was to teach Kim Joi Won a lesson… I never intended for anyone to get hurt… no one… NO ONE… was supposed to get hurt... and now… I don’t know how to get out of this mess…”
Yunho finished in a defeated tone. His eyes were bloodshot and his face unshaved. He could not sleep the night before, knowing that Junsu was nearly killed because of what he did. He felt even worse when Junsu’s mother went into critical condition. He may hate Kim Joi Won, but he looks upon Junsu, Changmin and Mrs Kim as family. He never wanted any of them to be hurt. He always thought he was making use of Kang-In to achieve his plan. He only realised the day before he was the one being made use of. And now, he was trapped.
Yoochun looked sympathetically at the man opposite him. Having worked with the man before, Yoochun knew Yunho was not a bad person. He could tell that the older man really cared for his brothers and Mrs Kim. He merely made a really bad decision and he was already suffering for it.
“Stop working with him, hyung. He truly is nuts. You will only get into deeper trouble.”
“You think I did not try, Yoochun? I tried… and the result is… Mrs Kim getting hurt. He is not letting me go…. Because he still needs me for his big plan… and if I try to get myself out of it again… I don’t know who he would hurt next time… Junsu is going to hate me for this…”
Yunho choked slightly on his words as he lowered his head between his hands. Yoochun merely frowned, thinking how he could help the other man.
“I won’t tell him, hyung. I won’t tell anyone…”
Yunho looked up in surprise, not expecting to receive support from the one person he did not trust.
“Trust me, hyung… I won’t tell Junsu, or Changmin… not even Jae hyung and Hyesung hyung. I have a plan but I need your trust… and help.”
Yunho let out a heavy sigh. On one hand, he was trapped in a deadly mess with Kim Kang-In. And now, the person he refused to trust seems to be the only person who could help him. He really did not know how to decide.
Seeing Yunho’s hesitation, Yoochun tried again.
“I’m here to help you hyung. I won’t harm you… you are Junsu’s brother. I would not do anything to hurt Su.”
“I’m not so sure about that yet… don’t get me started…”
“C’mon, hyung… what other options do you have?”
Yunho sighed loudly because he knew what Yoochun said was true. He had no choice. If he continued with Kim Kang-In, his whole family would be in danger. Although Yunho did not trust Yoochun completely, having worked with him, Yunho knows the younger man was dependable. He just did not like the idea that he was once part of Red Phoenix and that he knows Kim Kang-In. Yunho already knew what his options were.
“I’ll trust you this once. But not completely. Whatever you want me to do, you’d better leave my family out of it. Don’t you dare hurt any one of them, Park Yoochun. I won’t forgive you. I’ll kill you myself.”
Yoochun gave a relieved smile despite what Yunho said.
“Leave that kind of talking to me, hyung. It’s not suitable for you. Believe me. I want Kim Kang-In dead, as much as you do.”
Yunho caught the dark hatred in Yoochun’s eyes and hoped he made the right decision this time.
Yunho cleared his throat before he spoke again.
“So, what’s your plan?”
***
Junsu’s face cringed slightly before his eyes started to open. He sat up slowly, rubbing the sleep from his eyes when he felt a jacket fall off his shoulders. He recognised it as Yoochun’s immediately and it brought a smile to his face. But then his smile disappeared quickly when he realised the other man was not in the ward.
Just then, the door clicked open softly and Yoochun’s head popped in.
“Hey…”
“Hey… where did you go?”
Yoochun smiled widely as he entered the ward completely and swung a few bags of what seemed like food to Junsu.
“I bought us breakfast! This shall be our first breakfast together! Isn’t that great!”
Junsu laughed out loud at Yoochun’s silly behavior. He knew the other man was trying to cheer him up, knowing that he was worried sick about his mother. But, oddly, Yoochun’s presence did make things much better for Junsu.
“You silly dork…”
Junsu said playfully as he gestured for Yoochun to place the food down on the coffee table in the small ward. As Yoochun walked past Junsu, he casually reached his hands over around Junsu’s waist and gave the shorter man a quick peck on the forehead.
“For some unknown reason… you make me want to do that… I could not even help myself…”
Yoochun said easily as he looked into Junsu’s face.
Junsu was stunned by the sudden act of affection. As he stood frozen from the shock, a warm and fuzzy feeling washed all over the shorter man. It had been so long since he felt so loved and wanted that he thought he was beginning to feel light headed.
“Su? You alright?”
Yoochun asked worriedly as he realised Junsu staring at him without saying anything.
Junsu blinked a few times before he jolted out of his trance.
“Yeah… it’s just… It’s been so long… you know… since someone had shown affection for me like that… I don’t know how to react…”
“Are you kidding me? You reacted quite appropriately last night if I may say so… today’s just a peck!”
“Last night was different… Somehow, it was intense, what with the events of the day and you punching me and all… my emotions were not within my control already… I don’t know… I had sort of calmed down since… and this… just… threw me off my feet… … but…”
“But…?”
Junsu smiled to himself before he looked into Yoochun’s face and smiled even wider.
“I love it… go-mal-wo…”
Yoochun’s face turned slightly serious as he whispered what he wanted to say next.
“Thank you for letting me…”
Both men began to lean in to get closer to one another. As their lips met gently, an unspoken promise of togetherness was sealed.
Yoochun knew then how hurt Junsu was from his previous relationship and how big a step the other man took to finally give his heart and soul away again… to Yoochun. The older man felt fear at that thought as a voice in him warned him of the decision he had made together with Yunho. A decision that could make Junsu leave him.
“I wanna bring you somewhere…”
Yoochun said as they broke apart. He did not want to think about anything anymore. He just wanted some time alone with the other man. Junsu looked ready to say something but the taller man started again.
“I know you would want to stay by your mother’s side… but the doctors already said she would not wake up till tonight. I will call Jae hyung and Hyesung hyung to keep a watch on her… and I promise we would not go far… If anything happens, we’ll be back here in no time. It’s not everyday Kim Kang-In would be behind bars... I just wish to spend some time together. To be somewhere where we can put everything behind us for a while…”
Junsu’s mouth formed a line, as if in thought. He finally gave a slight smile and nodded. Yoochun beamed with delight.
***
“Just a few more steps… and we’ll be there!”
Yoochun called out excitedly, walking a few steps in front of Junsu, who was following behind, clueless about where they were going. He only knew they had been walking through grass as tall as the two of them and all he had been doing was pushing the plants out of his way, earning slight cuts from the sharp leaf blades as he did.
“Here we are!”
Yoochun announced chirpily, as he led Junsu out from the plants and into an open space. Slowly, a beach came into Junsu’s view. Yoochun had brought him to a small shore which overlooks the vast ocean. Junsu realised he was holding his breath in.
“Magnificent, eh? I discovered this place by accident once, while I was being pursued by rival gangs… back when I was still working for Red Phoenix. This place is like a personal heaven for me… I would lie here for hours, just listening to the waves and looking out over the horizon.”
Yoochun was already lying on the sand with his arms behind his head and his eyes closed. Junsu thought he looked really peaceful and it was something he had not seen the man reveal. The shorter man began to make himself comfortable beside his lover.
“I would come here… whenever I feel frustrated… or upset… usually… upset with my father…”
Yoochun trailed off and Junsu could see him frown.
“I would just lie here and listen to the waves… and try not to think of the unhappy things… it helps… which is why I brought you here.”
Yoochun propped himself up on his side to face Junsu. The latter did the same.
“You are probably really frustrated and have much on your mind… I just hope by bringing you here, you could forget about your troubles… at least for a while…”
Junsu smiled.
“Go-mal-wo… Yoochun ah… I do feel much better now… but I know as long as you are around… things just seemed a little brighter…”
Upon hearing that, Yoochun leaned in and captured the lips he was getting so addicted to. Junsu’s eyes fluttered close as he tasted Yoochun in his mouth slowly. Both men savoured the kiss with a gentle hunger. They hoped to just devour the other but yet they enjoy the closeness as they explored each other patiently.
Feeling the burning urge between his legs, Yoochun decided he had better pull apart from Junsu before he did something drastic. Not that he did not want to, but it was just not the time for something like that. As if thinking the same thing, Junsu did not complain when Yoochun pulled himself away.
“Used to these acts of affection yet?”
Yoochun mused, hoping to distract Junsu from realizing the obvious bulge in his pants.
“Loving them so far… ”
Junsu winked, as he lay down on the sand again, with his eyes closed. Yoochun also made himself comfortable so that he would be able to cool down.
“I have been wondering…”
Yoochun’s eyes shot open from the voice. He did not know if he had fallen asleep.
“What about?”
Junsu heaved a huge a sigh before he continued.
“Who exactly in the company is working with Kim Kang-In?”
Yoochun could feel a tightness around his chest. He swallowed.
“When I was held captive by Kim Kang-In, he received a call. From the way he was talking to the person, it seems as if the person on the line knows me… and is concerned about my safety.”
Yoochun remained silent. He hoped Junsu would not begin to put pieces together and suspect Yunho. Knowing how much Junsu treasured his family, he would be heart-broken. Yoochun’s plan would not be carried out either. He did not want to tell Junsu anything yet because he did not even know if his plan would work. But he did not want to lie to the man.
“Who do you think it might be, Yoochun?”
Yoochun’s lips formed a line and he could feel his heart beating faster at the question. He had to think of something to say.
“It could be anyone, Junsu. Any regular employee of the company knows you and would naturally be concerned about your safety. Think about it. If they are working with Kim Kang-In for some sort of benefit, they are just after the money. I don’t think any of them would want to be charged for murder.”
Junsu looked deep in thought. He seemed to think what Yoochun said made sense. Yoochun mentally heaved a sigh of relief.
“I guess that makes sense… that just makes it so much harder to find out who the spy is. If we do not find out who the person is soon, I’m just afraid of what Kim Kang-In might do when he is released.”
Yoochun could understand how heavy Junsu’s heart must be. His mother was in a coma and he must fear for the safety of his family and his company. Yoochun wished he could tell Junsu that the spy was already on their side and that they would definitely find a way to beat Kim Kang-In at his game. But Yoochun was sure if Junsu knew what he asked Yunho to do, he would not agree to it. The taller man also knew he was putting Yunho’s life in danger but it was the only way for them to get Kim Kang-In once and for all. For the sake of the bigger picture, Yoochun could only trust that Junsu would forgive him when he finally found out.
“Junsu…”
The said man turned when he heard the heavy tone in the other man’s voice.
“If I did something wrong… anything at all… would you forgive me?”
Junsu cocked his head slightly at the seriousness of Yoochun’s tone and expression. He licked his lips before he answered.
“By now, you should know I give myself completely in a relationship. When I do that, I trust whom I love totally. I guess that also means I would forgive whatever wrong they did. So… I guess the answer is yes… why are you asking me this question?”
Yoochun’s expression remained solemn.
“I did something very grave…”
“What? What did you do?”
“Well… I… I forgot where I parked the car.”
Yoochun laughed out loud at that.
“What?! You are such a dork, sometimes…”
“You will forgive me, right?”
“You are being stupid… I don’t forgive stupidity!”
“You said you would forgive me, no matter what wrong I do.”
“This is different!”
“No, it isn’t!”
“Get off me!”
“No… not until you forgive me!”
“Stop it! You’re being childish!”
Yoochun finally jumped off Junsu’s back and the smaller man was pounding his spine where Yoochun had jumped on earlier. The taller man could be seen smiling sheepishly.
“I don’t know what you are thinking sometimes…”
“I’m sure you will know me very well in time to come… Heh…”
Junsu laughed at the dorkiness of his lover and loved seeing the smile on the other’s face as the evening sun’s rays shone behind him. Junsu was glad he finally gave in to his feelings.
“We’d better head back… think we were out long enough. Let’s drop by my place for a shower before we return to the hospital.”
“Sure.”
Yoochun smiled at Junsu as he took the other’s hand in his. Junsu thought he was grabbing a little harder than usual but did not mind it as he let Yoochun lead them back to the car. He hoped Yoochun was kidding about forgetting where the vehicle was parked.
As Yoochun pulled Junsu behind him, his heart and mind was a mess. Although what Junsu said gave him some faith that the younger man might forgive him in the end, Yoochun knew he was betraying his lover’s trust in him. He needed to feel Junsu’s hand securely in his before he could convince himself that all he did was for the best. All he wanted was for Junsu to be safe and happy. Even if it means, he might not have Junsu by his side.
A nagging fear was ringing in Yoochun’s head.
“Would you forgive me, Junsu… if I betrayed your trust?”