No more
"Tujhe yaad na meri aayee. Kisi se ab kya kehna."
"Dil roya ki ankh bhar aayee. Kisi se ab kya kehna."
No more. I don't want any more of this painful sadness. I've had enough and it is about time I did something for myself than simply feel that my life was to only to exist and not to live or anything more that life brings us.
I've had enough of waiting and stupidly hoping that he would ever recognise me again. I've wasted a whole year on him waiting. I've wasted a God damn fucking year hoping, deluding myself that could ever care.
I now know that he really doesn't, and that he is living a life happy not giving two thoughts about me. I've wasted precious tears on a man that stopped caring. That cast me aside like a rag doll and drown me in a pit of hope.
I hate hope, it's pointless. It's like wishing, it's not true!
It's time I picked myself up brushed off the dust and moved on. Start living this life for myself and stop being what I am now. This disgusting thing I can't even face!
So Paul, you've messed me about far too long, now it's my turn to kick dirt into your eye.
EDIT: 25/04/09
You'll never know how much I miss you...
~neverwinter
"Dil roya ki ankh bhar aayee. Kisi se ab kya kehna."
No more. I don't want any more of this painful sadness. I've had enough and it is about time I did something for myself than simply feel that my life was to only to exist and not to live or anything more that life brings us.
I've had enough of waiting and stupidly hoping that he would ever recognise me again. I've wasted a whole year on him waiting. I've wasted a God damn fucking year hoping, deluding myself that could ever care.
I now know that he really doesn't, and that he is living a life happy not giving two thoughts about me. I've wasted precious tears on a man that stopped caring. That cast me aside like a rag doll and drown me in a pit of hope.
I hate hope, it's pointless. It's like wishing, it's not true!
It's time I picked myself up brushed off the dust and moved on. Start living this life for myself and stop being what I am now. This disgusting thing I can't even face!
So Paul, you've messed me about far too long, now it's my turn to kick dirt into your eye.
EDIT: 25/04/09
You'll never know how much I miss you...
~neverwinter