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I fell in love for the first time in 00. I fell harder in 05, an in 08 i m backhome. It is now 2011. An my fear is i may never experience that again. That i waited to long to fall in love. That im just not very good at it.
I love my life here. I love Texas. Right now im typing this In my two bedroom duplex i live with my puppy an my kitty. I have success. Im back in school. Im proud that i grossed 33k last year. I have amazing friends. A job that i dig. I go to church every Sunday. I am running my first bible study. I know im not the same girl from 01 or 05. Or 08.
Somebody recently asked me what i did in Vegas alone all the time before coming home. I told her the truth. I cried alot. That i refer to that as my red period. But before i answered i hesitated bc i couldntt even remember. An that scares me. It scares me as i grou an time passes. Shane doesn't feel likelike shane. I don't really remember. I kow im still not in love with him. Im just scared. Ill neverbe good at it.
I love my life here. I love Texas. Right now im typing this In my two bedroom duplex i live with my puppy an my kitty. I have success. Im back in school. Im proud that i grossed 33k last year. I have amazing friends. A job that i dig. I go to church every Sunday. I am running my first bible study. I know im not the same girl from 01 or 05. Or 08.
Somebody recently asked me what i did in Vegas alone all the time before coming home. I told her the truth. I cried alot. That i refer to that as my red period. But before i answered i hesitated bc i couldntt even remember. An that scares me. It scares me as i grou an time passes. Shane doesn't feel likelike shane. I don't really remember. I kow im still not in love with him. Im just scared. Ill neverbe good at it.