Why do i feel that I must be loved?
Why do I feel as though I must be loved? Lately I've been stuck in a predicament between three different girls. I've been approached by three different girls well not really all three I've been approached by two and I reconized that one of them likes me. For some reason my moron of a brain thought that I must make a choice between the three of them, and while typing my last journal I realized that I don't. Its just that lately I've been depressed alot and I've had alot of things on my mind and I think I just thought that if I had someone that I could talk to it would help me out. Then I remembered that I have great friends. So I went and talked to my ex-girlfriend who randomly kissed me not too long ago but thats a different story. Anyway I talked to her about this whole situation, and recently I thought about this whole situation and I thought that I might acutully want to go out with this girl named Abby b/c we're pretty good friends we get along well and she hot! But I realized that no matter how much I thought about it I still couldn't get someone else out of my head!I'm not going to say their name b/c i can't handle anymore drama but I think most people know who I'm talking about. I've been through alot with that person and we're I would like to say that we're good friends but we haven't hung out in a while probably b/c of other drama, but I can't get over the fact that I still have feeling for this person even though I know nothing can become of them. And I'm not talking like a crush or something I mean actual feelings strong feelings. I once told my friend shmev that I wasn't going to even try to "date" "go out with" whatever you want to call it, I said i wouldn't even attemped it until I found someone better. I never actully believed it because I always just moved on my whole life. I've never felt this way before. But now more than ever do I believe it! I don't think I can move on until I find someone better, and thats going to be hard b/c I've never met anyone this incredible my whole life. Thanks for reading this if you do. I know you guys are probably sick of hearing about the same stuff all the time but for real its all I think about! So whatever.