love kills man...
i strain for what i cannot have....i push for what is out of reach....i work towards the goals that can never be achieved...i love the one who will never love me....i hope for things that do not exist...and now i am faced with the reality of it....i am faced with the harsh results of time wasted...squandered away as if it were limitless...i am shoved into the dirt once again....for wishing for what will never come....for striving to become the best....although it is beyond what i truly am...still...i play the part....and i fail....still i pretend to be what i am not....and face the consequences...still...i love who doesnt love back....and am broken to helpless pieces....as i try to reassmble....but am only scattered more....there is nothing to stop this downward spiral....therefore....i do not even try to reassemble....i do not even try to pick my pathetic self up off the ground....and i do not dream.....i do not hope....and i do not love....when will changes be made?....perhaps never...that is why i am what i am....and do not wish for more....i cannot be satisfied with the endless pain i can only continue to suffer....but just leave me here....do not waste your time on me...because i cannot become more....and you perhaps can....so...move along....there is nothing to behold...save for my tangled life...my lost hope....and my shattered love....