please. Just make it go away... please.

May 05, 2005 00:27

go away. I know she's going to be alright, but this is incredible. They won't go away. The smell, the panic, the fear, the thoughts, the images. I get scared when I think I see her. I scream when I...

I can't sleep sometimes, I wake up in sweats. I have nightmares. I thought my friends were going to die. I thought I was going to die. She's alright, I know that. Shit - I've been saying that like a broken record reminding the crowd. But when does this end?

We put our lives on the line. We made it through. I guess these are the repercussions to our choice. We saved her life, now we are left to deal with this. I guess its worth it.

I can't eat, I want to throw up. Someone says the magic words and I cringe, I get lost. I wander off in outter space. We share this. I feel it. Is it mine forever? Will it be erased?

Its on to me. I am a slave to a reaction due to this event. Smell the wrong thing- I might just vomit, say the wrong thing- I might just get lost in a black hole, see the wrong thing- I might just scream.

go to sleep and wake up full of sweat. I'm ok, we are ok. Just make it go away.
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