Been A Bad Week But Life Goes On
Hmmmm. Lets just say that my week generally sucked. Homecomming in walkersville was fun, I think i told ya about it. Kinda crazy but yea. Hmmmm Monday just sucked. It was susposed to be halloween, which to me is susposed to be fun. Well besides the fact i was up all night from phone calls, i get one in the morning that my step dad's car was vandilized or some shit like that. Aparently some guys kept tryin to get into the house and wrote all over my step dad's car threatenin me and Tommy. So i was pretty tired to begin with.
Well i went to my crush's that night to hang out. It really wasnt too fun. He had some friends over and amber and i kinda felt like outkasts. People started to talk to us after a while, mostly the guys, he really didnt seem like he wanted me there but amber and i stayed we figured it may turn fun. Instead it jus sucked. The more the night went on i realized that i was kinda botherin the kid. Then the next day i asked if he was even intersted in me. And of course my luck he wasn't. He just wanted some ass, like the rest of them. I got pissed and figured that i was wastin my time. Plus were 2 different people. He doesnt like anythin about me really. But then again he doesn't kno me. He wants an american eagle, aeropostale, abercrombie anf fitch girl like him. He wants a slut who'll give it up whenever and im just not like that.
Not gona lie though it "crushed" me. I cried cuz i felt like shit. But i guess im better off on my own. I cant seem to get a boyfriend im only good for sex. I was rejected and it hurt like hell. But now im kinda over it. We talked last night and everything was ok. Were jus friends now and thats it. He explained to me how im a ggreat girl he jus doesnt want a relationship (hm reminds me of shaun). Iv found im better than that though. No doubt though if he wanted to have one with me i would still do it. But i think that fact that we are really different is gona stop us. He never really got to kno me and prolly never will. Theres more to me than my appearance, ha wish someone would notice that. Oh well u gota take wut life gives ya.
Been talkin to shaun lately. Him and i r friends nothin more. When he gets fucked up he tells me how he made the biggest mistake by lettin me go. I jus kinda ignore it and remember the drugs lol. Hes really goin down hill in life, and its kinda sad to see it happen. He is a good person, but he jus dont try no more. An really im not gona try and help him. Ive had my fair share of it. Well gots lot of homework to do. TTYL
Well i went to my crush's that night to hang out. It really wasnt too fun. He had some friends over and amber and i kinda felt like outkasts. People started to talk to us after a while, mostly the guys, he really didnt seem like he wanted me there but amber and i stayed we figured it may turn fun. Instead it jus sucked. The more the night went on i realized that i was kinda botherin the kid. Then the next day i asked if he was even intersted in me. And of course my luck he wasn't. He just wanted some ass, like the rest of them. I got pissed and figured that i was wastin my time. Plus were 2 different people. He doesnt like anythin about me really. But then again he doesn't kno me. He wants an american eagle, aeropostale, abercrombie anf fitch girl like him. He wants a slut who'll give it up whenever and im just not like that.
Not gona lie though it "crushed" me. I cried cuz i felt like shit. But i guess im better off on my own. I cant seem to get a boyfriend im only good for sex. I was rejected and it hurt like hell. But now im kinda over it. We talked last night and everything was ok. Were jus friends now and thats it. He explained to me how im a ggreat girl he jus doesnt want a relationship (hm reminds me of shaun). Iv found im better than that though. No doubt though if he wanted to have one with me i would still do it. But i think that fact that we are really different is gona stop us. He never really got to kno me and prolly never will. Theres more to me than my appearance, ha wish someone would notice that. Oh well u gota take wut life gives ya.
Been talkin to shaun lately. Him and i r friends nothin more. When he gets fucked up he tells me how he made the biggest mistake by lettin me go. I jus kinda ignore it and remember the drugs lol. Hes really goin down hill in life, and its kinda sad to see it happen. He is a good person, but he jus dont try no more. An really im not gona try and help him. Ive had my fair share of it. Well gots lot of homework to do. TTYL