lots
I want new clothes. This is an urge i haven't felt in a very long time. I haven't gotten anything new since last christmas 2003. I used to love nothing more than spending my hard earned cash on a new pair of pants (i was never much of a shirt guy). I was just looking at some of the stuff over at hot topic (fuck you) and at the kikwear websites. kikwear isn't what they used to be at all, which is to say that they totally fucking suck now, but whatever. I checked out some macgear stuff as well and it just made me want to go shopping for clothes. With the wedding coming up (YAY!) i'm kinda trying to shop for some nice stuff, but tragically different of course :). I need a new suit jacket and i want to get a new pair of pants to go along with it. The problem with my pants now is that most of them are a faded shade of black and that's not really the look i want for my wedding. It has to be a very crisp dark shade of black. I know that it's very late tonight, but i wanted to spend some time with myself, so that's what i've been doing. i've got my christmas lights on. they tend to make the room much more inviting and cozy. i've noticed that when i'm sad i won't ever turn them on, so i made a point to do so tonight. it's been very comforting.
let go
let go