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Well not much to update about. I talked to my ex some more tonight. Found out some truthful answers about our history together. Just dumb stuff she said because she thought thats what I wanted to hear. I told her, I didnt mind if thats what she wanted, just be truthful. Not hard right? Sometimes I find it amusing how much people will lie, especially ones who say they care about you. Its weird. All my feelings for her are still there, but somethings different. Maybe its the fact that I realized that I want JUST a girlfriend. Not someone who Im gonna be with forever. Like I guess I thought I wanted something I didnt. So I allowed myself to become boring and not as fun anymore. Heh, trying to be grown when you really arent is a bitch. But Im learning now, I am glad however that her and I are talking again. I hope that one day we get back to where we are best friends again. Who knows we might even end up dating again. Only time will tell. I just know I want a girl, but I want it to be relaxed and carefree. Like it was when I first started dating Stephanie. Ah well, wishful thinking I guess. Thats all for now. PAYCE!
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