This journal thing is kind of neat
I just read through 7 years of my own entries. The humor, the politics, and the drama (my journal actually began with my poor breakup with kadath, spanned our reconciliation, and comments on the news subject whose discussion prompted her to ban me from her journal).
I've been struck by two things:
First, I actually quite like the person I was a few years ago. I was passionate and well-spoken, and I still find my old posts meaningful and/or amusing. Maybe I'm still those things, I'm not sure if I can really compare now-me to then-me, but at least it seems like I was more interesting back then.
Second, I've lost contact with a lot of people. Through the comments to my posts I can track from first meeting people to falling out with them, and only now recognize some people I never really interacted with overly much that would reliably comment on my posts when I needed support. It's more than a little depressing, especially since now that I'm in Hawaii it's not likely these relationships could realistically be rekindled.
Even were it more reasonable, I'm not sure all of them should be. Not all of these relationships dissolved due to mistakes or misunderstandings. For some we were really just different people at the different points in time and while it's sad to watch the relationship fade, the two individuals who had the good relationship don't necessarily exist anymore.
Nevertheless, it was a cathartic experience, and maybe something to help me remember who I am, or who I want to be.
I've been struck by two things:
First, I actually quite like the person I was a few years ago. I was passionate and well-spoken, and I still find my old posts meaningful and/or amusing. Maybe I'm still those things, I'm not sure if I can really compare now-me to then-me, but at least it seems like I was more interesting back then.
Second, I've lost contact with a lot of people. Through the comments to my posts I can track from first meeting people to falling out with them, and only now recognize some people I never really interacted with overly much that would reliably comment on my posts when I needed support. It's more than a little depressing, especially since now that I'm in Hawaii it's not likely these relationships could realistically be rekindled.
Even were it more reasonable, I'm not sure all of them should be. Not all of these relationships dissolved due to mistakes or misunderstandings. For some we were really just different people at the different points in time and while it's sad to watch the relationship fade, the two individuals who had the good relationship don't necessarily exist anymore.
Nevertheless, it was a cathartic experience, and maybe something to help me remember who I am, or who I want to be.