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restless restless restless
sleepless sleepless sleepless
sigh . . .
i don't like when impending feelings rush forward earlier than they're needed. they make it difficult to stay present and savour all the good i have right now.
i think my ideal wish is not unreasonable at all. so why am i still so afraid to say it? to just ask? how is it i've been able to be completely honest until now, when it matters most?
maybe i'm fearing rejection. maybe i'm fearing starting again. maybe i'm fearing repeating the past. how is it that more than ever i'm thinking of the past when this is so different?
again, sigh.
restless restless restless
sleepless sleepless sleepless
sleepless sleepless sleepless
sigh . . .
i don't like when impending feelings rush forward earlier than they're needed. they make it difficult to stay present and savour all the good i have right now.
i think my ideal wish is not unreasonable at all. so why am i still so afraid to say it? to just ask? how is it i've been able to be completely honest until now, when it matters most?
maybe i'm fearing rejection. maybe i'm fearing starting again. maybe i'm fearing repeating the past. how is it that more than ever i'm thinking of the past when this is so different?
again, sigh.
restless restless restless
sleepless sleepless sleepless