Being Healthy is the first step to loving yourself Part 2
So I have not given up on exercising, I just have to get my body back in the mix of things. I am stiff all over so I have to fully stretch every part of my body out to obtain the flexibility I once had about a week ago going on two weeks. I have started to get myself prepared for the Career Fair, I am more nervous than I was when I went to the first career fair. I think the only reason why I feel that way is because its all or nothing. I have to be able to land a job here, if I can't land a job here than I have to do the outreaching as much as I can with what I know and who I know and that is very limited. So I have to spend the next couple of days researching all of the companies I have gained interest in and see where I would fit in to their perspectives and new hiring list. I also have to make sure that I at least print out several copies of my updated resume so if they ask for it I will have that available for them as well. I have already gone to the Career Center and they have looked over my past resume and told me the way it is supposed to look and how updated my information should be as well as any awards I should have printed on my paper and that I should stick it to one page only no more than that. I don't know if I will be doing a cover letter but, the advisor basically said that I shouldn't worry about it because a cover letter is usally asked tengent on my getting an interview and is a summary of my resume.
So that is the good news with that, although I need to use my time wisely when it comes to this weekend. I took a Spanish exam today and I think I bombed it. I did not feel confident at all when I was taking it so I have no idea. I also think this was the worst week for me. I got my paper back from Critical Reading and Writing class and it was a bad grade, I didn't fail it but he basically ripped my paper apart and of course told me to go to the writing center. So I am walking my behind to the writing center and having them look over what I need to correct so that way I can get a better grade. I also have to redo another assignment for my Professional Writing class, its just part of the process before we actually get a grade on it and it needs to be a B or higher in order to be used in a real life situation. By the way I though most of these English courses would be easy, nope they are hard just like my Spanish course so I guess I proved to myself as much as I want to write or would love to do it one day, I suck at writing how I feel and explaining it thoroughly.
Anyway my sister called me and told my she has a over the phone interview so I hope she does well. I wish she was here getting all the tips that I get for phone interviews so she does not screw it up. Sometimes my sister is an air head so she never fully explains herself as well as she should so I am really worries that she will end p messing it up when she really does not mean to. My sister contemplated on getting out mother a birthday card mainly because our mother really does not make an effort to know here children or try to evolve herself in their lives as much as she should. But you never really know, my aunt asked if I was going to invite her to my graduation in August. I told my sister yes, I would like my mother to see me get my first Bachelor's degree but who knows I invited her to my graduation when I got my Associates Degree but that's in the past.
I have not talked to my dad since I have been back in school, again its the same relationship I have with my parents, non existent. It's really sad that I have no relationship with the people who have basically given birth to me. It makes me lie at night sometimes wondering what more could be done on my part when I feel that I have done everything in my power to make a connection. My cousin Micheal is making an effort to come to my graduation, he asked my aunt to ask me when the date would be which is nice. I guess I should make an effort to talk to him considering I did not think about him even coming to my graduation which feel great.
On a even bigger note I have to make sure that I apply for summer school before times runs out and I also have to make sure I feel out financial aid for the last time which I am excited about. I don't have to take out any more loans and maybe I will be a big refund check so I can pay off this stupid credit card bill that I have been trying to pay off for the past 10 years almost. I know what most people say is you pay off what you owe and then just keeping making payments to build up your credit but I really just want to get rid of the card. The last time I kept making payments I got it down to the lowest payment on it and then started charging again to pay for school stuff. But I guess we will see
So me and Josh are doing ok, I feel like in some cases its going to be okay then in others I feel like I need more of an effort. If I don't make the first moves then he will never. But, I also feel that he's a guy or supposed to be the guy in the relationship he should make the moves. I don't know what to do. I'm definitely not into re-dating right now just like being around him and having fun but at the same time while I am having fun I am noticing things that I don't like mainly him being unemotional and not showing some type of interest in me even though he says he is attracted to me. I don't know I'll just leave that one alone.
So that is the good news with that, although I need to use my time wisely when it comes to this weekend. I took a Spanish exam today and I think I bombed it. I did not feel confident at all when I was taking it so I have no idea. I also think this was the worst week for me. I got my paper back from Critical Reading and Writing class and it was a bad grade, I didn't fail it but he basically ripped my paper apart and of course told me to go to the writing center. So I am walking my behind to the writing center and having them look over what I need to correct so that way I can get a better grade. I also have to redo another assignment for my Professional Writing class, its just part of the process before we actually get a grade on it and it needs to be a B or higher in order to be used in a real life situation. By the way I though most of these English courses would be easy, nope they are hard just like my Spanish course so I guess I proved to myself as much as I want to write or would love to do it one day, I suck at writing how I feel and explaining it thoroughly.
Anyway my sister called me and told my she has a over the phone interview so I hope she does well. I wish she was here getting all the tips that I get for phone interviews so she does not screw it up. Sometimes my sister is an air head so she never fully explains herself as well as she should so I am really worries that she will end p messing it up when she really does not mean to. My sister contemplated on getting out mother a birthday card mainly because our mother really does not make an effort to know here children or try to evolve herself in their lives as much as she should. But you never really know, my aunt asked if I was going to invite her to my graduation in August. I told my sister yes, I would like my mother to see me get my first Bachelor's degree but who knows I invited her to my graduation when I got my Associates Degree but that's in the past.
I have not talked to my dad since I have been back in school, again its the same relationship I have with my parents, non existent. It's really sad that I have no relationship with the people who have basically given birth to me. It makes me lie at night sometimes wondering what more could be done on my part when I feel that I have done everything in my power to make a connection. My cousin Micheal is making an effort to come to my graduation, he asked my aunt to ask me when the date would be which is nice. I guess I should make an effort to talk to him considering I did not think about him even coming to my graduation which feel great.
On a even bigger note I have to make sure that I apply for summer school before times runs out and I also have to make sure I feel out financial aid for the last time which I am excited about. I don't have to take out any more loans and maybe I will be a big refund check so I can pay off this stupid credit card bill that I have been trying to pay off for the past 10 years almost. I know what most people say is you pay off what you owe and then just keeping making payments to build up your credit but I really just want to get rid of the card. The last time I kept making payments I got it down to the lowest payment on it and then started charging again to pay for school stuff. But I guess we will see
So me and Josh are doing ok, I feel like in some cases its going to be okay then in others I feel like I need more of an effort. If I don't make the first moves then he will never. But, I also feel that he's a guy or supposed to be the guy in the relationship he should make the moves. I don't know what to do. I'm definitely not into re-dating right now just like being around him and having fun but at the same time while I am having fun I am noticing things that I don't like mainly him being unemotional and not showing some type of interest in me even though he says he is attracted to me. I don't know I'll just leave that one alone.