I am what you are not

[netrasauce]

I am to weak to be this strong.
I am smart and choose that which is moronic.
I am nothing which is everything.
I am alone and never left alone.
I am happy when I make sadness.
I can listen to you and I can guide you.
You want to tell me but you don't want to let me hear.
You should call but you shouldn't fear.
I can last even if I fall apart.
I don't need medication so I take 6 pills a day.
I will cry but there will be no tears.
I am lost in what is a state of being found.
every place is better till i get there.
Every voice that had been there is not where my voice comes from.
I tried hideing but I only end up more exposed.
I am shamefull and guilty of even that.
I never sleep but I am not awake.
I am to strong to be this weak.