Death, darkness, of what?
ha ha by jove! I really do hate heart of Darkness.....it's really boring. all though it does question some very important things. I like thinking about humanity and if we really are as civilized as we think we are. We have no respect for death any longer you turn on the news and you hear that two children where murdered in thier homes last night and you shrug your shoulders, sigh, say something to the effect of, thats to bad and then you move on. Mortality is very real and I don't think that we understand that nor do we understand that in the face of death one shouldn't really be afraid becuase it is a final end. No more struggle, for there is no hell. No more pain, just the end, the knowing of who you once were and always will be, a final relazation. That sounds so much better to me then struggling to be alive, struggling with not knowing all the time who you are or who you are becoming and yet i know that if i was faced with the realization that I would die I would panic in fear, I suppose becuase this world leads you to doubt your highest thought, the truth you know about death. Perhaps you are afraid to die becuase you do know the final realization after death but you want other to know as well and if you won't tell them who will? Is our fear of death also a fear of not being able to make a change in the world? Are we afraid that we have not learned enough to pass life, that when our hearts are empty that our souls are not full enough to continue on that they will be stuck in some state of earthly though? What is it that allows the thought that I need to live, that I need to experience that I must continue breathing? What is it that I am living for? I think that I live for my-self and for others, for a possible self-realization before death. What am I speaking of? words are meaningless at this momment, devoid of the emotions i was hoping to convey. Mabey I will gather it all toghether and display it in a proper way later.