Sincerely, I will kill you all
Well, Well, Well.
Here it is, the day after thanksgiving and I dunno what to do with myself. Im in San Jose, but I have to leave within the next 2 hrs cuz I have to be at work at 2:30. Anyway, the past 24 hrs have definately been an experience with the fam... a confusing one, but I wont go any deeper into it. Its just... blah. I was flaked on by a good friend for the hundredth time last night... Im really really sick of him doing this to me. For some reason he just doesnt seem to understand how much it bugs/hurts me when he does this. Its not cool to get someone super excited about something, then just bail. I mean, fuck. I dont know what to do with this boy anymore. I love him more than anything, i really really do, but i cant handle him doing this to me anymore. I dont even think its worth holding the possibility of seeing him so close to me because Im just gonna be shot down. Why do I always choose to be close to people who constantly take advantage of me? Maybe he's right... maybe i do find some kind of happiness in being hurt.... i dont know.
But, on a different subject, the 14 hrs was fucking rad! One of the craziest nights Ive ever taken part in, but definately a good one. Oh, what I would give to go back for another night of Party-goodness. But, no. Ive got to get back to my hectic schedule. I swear, sometimes I just wanna give up.