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Tuesday night....
I should be doing homework, but Im so fucking tired I need to chill for a bit. Anyway, Ive really began to miss my free time. With work and school, I never have any time to see any of my friends, i never have time to do anything fun. Its really began to make me sad, cuz im so out of the loop. It makes me sad. But, when i stop and really think about it, something else makes me even more sad. The "group" I spent lots of time with last yr at the usual parties and stuff seems to have disappeared. Before, with any kind of outing, it was no question who would be there, it was the usual crowd. But, nowwith so many changes, there doesnt seem to be a "usual crowd" anymore. I know that this is a common thing, friends going their seperate ways. But, just knowing that things can change that quickly really makes me realize how fast life moves, and how many things are taken for granted. I know, this is just way cheesy and lame, but its been on my mind and i just had to mention it. Its just sad. Lame, thats me.
Still really emo, still hurt by the comfort and appreciation that wasn't there, still questioning whether it ever was. Is it worth it?