Anxiety - venting
Last night I was herding my tablets together I KNEW I was missing one. I just couldn't think what it was. Iron tablet, aspirin, antihistamine, fish oil, calcium/magnesium supplement... In the end I gave up and just went to bed.
When I was getting breakfast this morning and herding together my morning tablets, it only took once glance at the pharmacy to realise what I'd missed - ANXIETY MEDS!!!
Surprisingly, I managed to sleep. It wasn't good sleep, but it was sleep. I'm down to two tablets at night, and because they do make me drowsy, I took one tablet this morning just to get some coverage through the day.
What I have discovered... I am by no means ready to make the next dosage reduction down to one tablet per day. I'm fine with normal stuff, but have virtually no ability to cope if something out of the ordinary comes up.
Last week I was summoned to a meeting with a parent... At which point said parent proceeded to tell me that I am completely disinterested in my year 8 class, demean them and basically treat them like crap. Instances were brought up of me brushing a student (not even this parent's child!) off when they asked for help one lunch time and sending them away. Fact of the matter was - I was suffering from horrendous morning sickness, had a splitting headache and told the student I felt like hell and could we please do this some other time when I'm not feeling so sick, etc, etc, etc. Most of it observations from the student relayed to the parent with words twisted/changed and everything being basically misquoted or misinterpreted.
Today I get told I have a follow up meeting tomorrow with the child present at 9:30.
Commence freak out that has me wondering if I can even get out of bed tomorrow, let alone go to work!
AAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can't help thinking that this probably wouldn't be so bad if I'd remembered my meds last night... However, I'd more than likely have remembered my meds if I hadn't just spent the last three nights with the house alarm emitting 10 loud beeps every hour because it is demanding a new battery. The unit is in the wardrobe in our room - it's bloody loud and I am sleep deprived!
When I was getting breakfast this morning and herding together my morning tablets, it only took once glance at the pharmacy to realise what I'd missed - ANXIETY MEDS!!!
Surprisingly, I managed to sleep. It wasn't good sleep, but it was sleep. I'm down to two tablets at night, and because they do make me drowsy, I took one tablet this morning just to get some coverage through the day.
What I have discovered... I am by no means ready to make the next dosage reduction down to one tablet per day. I'm fine with normal stuff, but have virtually no ability to cope if something out of the ordinary comes up.
Last week I was summoned to a meeting with a parent... At which point said parent proceeded to tell me that I am completely disinterested in my year 8 class, demean them and basically treat them like crap. Instances were brought up of me brushing a student (not even this parent's child!) off when they asked for help one lunch time and sending them away. Fact of the matter was - I was suffering from horrendous morning sickness, had a splitting headache and told the student I felt like hell and could we please do this some other time when I'm not feeling so sick, etc, etc, etc. Most of it observations from the student relayed to the parent with words twisted/changed and everything being basically misquoted or misinterpreted.
Today I get told I have a follow up meeting tomorrow with the child present at 9:30.
Commence freak out that has me wondering if I can even get out of bed tomorrow, let alone go to work!
AAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can't help thinking that this probably wouldn't be so bad if I'd remembered my meds last night... However, I'd more than likely have remembered my meds if I hadn't just spent the last three nights with the house alarm emitting 10 loud beeps every hour because it is demanding a new battery. The unit is in the wardrobe in our room - it's bloody loud and I am sleep deprived!