I have a complex
Because sometimes monotony is easier than change. People aren’t willing to change or accept change. And so the cycle circles back.
Nevertheless, I started writing this as self help. I want to change my attitude towards my mother. I would never wish anything bad on her and of course I love her. She’ll without a doubt defend me on all counts even if I’m at fault. She plays her role well and I don’t appreciate that enough. On the other hand, when I don’t need defending I want her to understand that. People aren’t always out to get me and I’m very capable I’m making my own choices. I think this is a constant battle between parents and their children but the verbal exchange depends on the relationship that is held between that parent and child. I think my mom and I have good communication but she doesn’t always listen and vice versa. I think it’s somewhat due to generational problems. My view on humanity sometimes differs from hers but other times we see eye to eye. As with most people. But it’s always a little different when it’s your parents and not some person at work or a stranger. You want them to agree with you more than others. But I guess sometimes it just won’t happen. Sadly.