Awkward combination of joy and grump
So I auntied-up again yesterday morning, which is completely wonderful. Erik is an epic little fella, and watching Anna on her first day as a big sister made my heart go pitter-pat.
Married a completely lovely couple last night. The brides cried, their families cried, I almost cried. It was perfect.
Travis and I have been back together for about a month and a half now, and he makes me incredibly happy. He's squishy where Kyle is spiky, and my heart is bursting with love for both of them.
And now for the grump.
I'm on the morning shift this weekend (also, weekends mean one activity staff per TWO floors, which is brutal), so I asked Travis to go home for a couple of nights. He totally understands that I need space to sleep properly, and it's not a rejection of him in any way. I love that he gets me that way. So he's going home to his dad's, where he actually lives, tonight and tomorrow night.
...and Kyle invited his girlfriend to stay over tonight.
I feel like I can't deny him this, because he never, ever complains about Travis being here all the time (which is funny, 'cause I do!), and he's been extraordinarily moody and mean lately. And I like Charlie a lot. She's totally lovely. But FUCK. I want half the damned bed! I want to fall asleep early (there will be melatonin) and drag my ass out of bed at stupid o'clock in the morning and go work myself to the bone all day. I don't want to have to entertain.
And now I have to go to work. I'm so upset about this. I might just clear the bed in the spare room and make it up for myself for the night. Use my phone as an alarm clock. I'll get by.
Married a completely lovely couple last night. The brides cried, their families cried, I almost cried. It was perfect.
Travis and I have been back together for about a month and a half now, and he makes me incredibly happy. He's squishy where Kyle is spiky, and my heart is bursting with love for both of them.
And now for the grump.
I'm on the morning shift this weekend (also, weekends mean one activity staff per TWO floors, which is brutal), so I asked Travis to go home for a couple of nights. He totally understands that I need space to sleep properly, and it's not a rejection of him in any way. I love that he gets me that way. So he's going home to his dad's, where he actually lives, tonight and tomorrow night.
...and Kyle invited his girlfriend to stay over tonight.
I feel like I can't deny him this, because he never, ever complains about Travis being here all the time (which is funny, 'cause I do!), and he's been extraordinarily moody and mean lately. And I like Charlie a lot. She's totally lovely. But FUCK. I want half the damned bed! I want to fall asleep early (there will be melatonin) and drag my ass out of bed at stupid o'clock in the morning and go work myself to the bone all day. I don't want to have to entertain.
And now I have to go to work. I'm so upset about this. I might just clear the bed in the spare room and make it up for myself for the night. Use my phone as an alarm clock. I'll get by.