One Week
Tristan is one week old today :)
It's been a trip this past week. First of all, the decision to proceed with the c-section was never in our plans. But in the end we had to do what was best for Tristan. Then, getting home and breaking down because I felt helpless with my inability to do much due to the surgery. It's a weird, humbling feeling, being dependent on others for even the smallest tasks. As adamant as I was about not wanting a c-section, I wish we had made plans for it, because it doesn't change the fact that there is a possibility of it occuring and that there are consequences.
Then there's the part where we learn about Tristan's schedule of sleeping, eating, and diaper changing. So far I've learned that follow-up doctor visits with the pediatrician and the lactation people are very good at interrupting and totally effing up whatever routine we had established. At least we know that Tristan is healthy overall. A bit jaundiced, but it's going away. And he's feeding really well, and we've even started to wean him off formula in favor of breast milk.
But the best part is just watching him and feeling him pressed up against my chest as he falls asleep. As much complaining as I did during my pregnancy, what with the nausea, discomfort, and even laboring for almost 30 hours and going through major surgery...he is totally worth it. Tristan is indeed the best present ever :)
It's been a trip this past week. First of all, the decision to proceed with the c-section was never in our plans. But in the end we had to do what was best for Tristan. Then, getting home and breaking down because I felt helpless with my inability to do much due to the surgery. It's a weird, humbling feeling, being dependent on others for even the smallest tasks. As adamant as I was about not wanting a c-section, I wish we had made plans for it, because it doesn't change the fact that there is a possibility of it occuring and that there are consequences.
Then there's the part where we learn about Tristan's schedule of sleeping, eating, and diaper changing. So far I've learned that follow-up doctor visits with the pediatrician and the lactation people are very good at interrupting and totally effing up whatever routine we had established. At least we know that Tristan is healthy overall. A bit jaundiced, but it's going away. And he's feeding really well, and we've even started to wean him off formula in favor of breast milk.
But the best part is just watching him and feeling him pressed up against my chest as he falls asleep. As much complaining as I did during my pregnancy, what with the nausea, discomfort, and even laboring for almost 30 hours and going through major surgery...he is totally worth it. Tristan is indeed the best present ever :)